Life

Ever wonder what is life all about? I think i do now, that is to let go of things.

Hey, look at the cbox now, someone just commented A=apple, KNS. I suppose the adding of KNS= he's not happy with me getting A. I have to say GTFO my blog cause you have indeed raged me after an emotional day.

Alright, put such ''stupid'' people to one side. CB, you think you never get A for chinese you can scold people is it? Fk you, i wanted to put this to one side but you fking rage me. Cb, you think i get A for chinese for you to comment on it?

Fk you, the next person who is unhappy with me just come straight to me and tell me about it, you are going to give me a chance to punch you in your fking face.

You know i was really happy about the A, this is certainly a prove that my chinese standard is not there for shit, do you think that i will take it lying down that Chen siew lan laoshi always comment on those muggers that their chinese were good?

Do you even fking understand what is chinese about? Do you fking think that it is about scoring? Do you fking think that it is about getting A? Do you fking think that it is about studying for the sake of studying?

Do you fking think that you can get A just by mugging, and you do deserve it?

Think about it before you type shit on the cbox. I will gladly want to know which idoit type that out, especially the last part, KNS.

Wo cao ni ma de.

Now, i know who is $, i understand the KNS part cause i know him well. Super well. But i decided not to delete this post to warn against those idoits out there.

I will say, i did not say much about my chinese grade, i even fool teachers who asked me about it, they thought i freaking failed or something. I can't be bothered explaining...

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Ok, the upper post is a rage post. This is the important part about the blog title.

You know that i certainly have decided on moving on? On the first day, i have to receive such treatment from heaven to make me look back? If you do want to listen to other people's bad advice for the situation go ahead, i am not going to interfere anymore.

Don't do that anymore...? At least not in my sight, because i did what you did too... It hurts? To the extent where my breathing stopped.

Since things have to be so, please go back to the top of the title. -letting go of things-

I wonder if i can do it? I will try. I must. I can. I AM NOT GOING TO LET OTHER PEOPLE CONTROL MY LIFE.

Piss off. I hate hearing that ugly voice anymore, the more i hear it, the more past-deeds of yours are being refresh in my memory.

Hey, i have to say that my mood today went from----> Excited, no why are you doing this?, normal, sad.

First time i saw david broke down and sort of rage.

Do i deserve that A? I know that my standard in an examination would certainly be deserving, but attitude wise?

I guess not...

Like what i said, chinese examination was screwed ttm because it was testing the wrong bullshit.

I do say vulgarities, i am in a bad mood.

Do you know what has been the motivation for me to move on? If only you knew? If only you did understand. When i ran till the last lap of 20th lap. My legs felt like they were gone, my heart felt like it was dead, my brain keep telling me one and only one thing. I must not give up because if i did what is worthy of me to you?

I am doing all things with that in mind...

That shall be kept with me till the end, never to be forgotten. Thanks for it, when i have to break through that thinking i will really go back and think about it, that very thing that have been with me, the thing that made me went on.

To protect you.

I never turn around cause i knew that i must stop this thing. Do i still stand a chance?

I just need my sleep now after what i went throught today.

Wash it off. Wash it off.