Inspired

By someone whom i will mention later on.

Actually i did reflected about what have been going on for these 1 plus years. Well, for my kind of brain obviously it would be a natural thing. I am just looking back at it like a big picture. A super big one. Bigger than the blue sky.

When i first joined nyjc, all i knew was that i made a stupid major mistake joining CLEP. Well, not really a mistake because my chinese was really fine, i guess spending about one year not speaking or writing chinese certainly affected it. Well, A1 in mid-year will lead to that, doing math during chinese lesson...

The teachers were like worried about my chinese, totally when i was in 0935. When i was in the class i questioned about the state. Like everyone in there had like 13^ L1R5. So why the heck was i doing there? I didn't even need the extra 2 points to come in so why am i ''forced'' to take that combi. Well, there was bound to be more idoits in this world and bam i met teck kiang. A nice 5 pointer who did the same thing haha. Still remember those days where when we both decided to drop from H2 chinese? Laughing at ourselves cause we changed the meaning of poems and text. Our favourite? Haha, sick stuff about li bai.

Well, i still do call him a loser and he call me idoit.

Jerrold, Boon kit, siming, Joel, Junling, Shi hao and teck kiang. It was never meant to be from the start. So little guys... Weird, since i am from a boys school.

You know being in a boys school stinks? Haha, it changes you slowly bit by bit until some finally becomes weird. I suppose i am one of them. The first time i understand about feeling was probably during Primary 6. It lasted from Primary 4 to sec 2. Well techically only 2 years as i only get the idea at P6. It was great, it was like unexplainable.

Things did turn bad, a story where just nice her dad have to die. Her mum wanted her back into indonesia. Now you get it? Maybe that's why i have affinity with indonesians. Andrew, chayadi. Haha 2 of my Bestfriend are indos. She told me i will find someone better, someone much better because things were indeed getting messy then. Like as if i can accept it. I just had to be that idoit who just wanted to stay by her and see her to the end. She changed during sec2 and i woke up from my stupid journey.

Well, 4 years after primary school. Many guys from boys school would say it was indeed a good experience for once to be in a mixed school. I found it hard to differentiate the feeling. It may seem to be the case but i know it when i have it. I just know it.

Dropping out from 35, i went into 31. Another mis-planned as i did not ended up in Yadi/KS class. I didn't ended up in science classes as well. Like what the dabilabillooobullcow, since my physic was good. I went back to challenge geo which disappointed me by giving me 2 years of A1 and 1 time B3. Like go hell man, i might not have even ended up in nyjc. Thanks god i did, really i have to.

Ever wonder why i kept mentioning that it was fated?

Skipping 32 and ending up in 31. I didn't wanted to start making friend all over again, but i had no choice. Really just no choice. Same old situation whereby there are so little guys. Imagine my first person whom i talked to was Zhi quan? In my mind i was like, com'on you really have to test my EQ by letting me crack his mind open. Someone whom many say is living in his own world. I did it... Now he is sticking on to me like anything pulling my bag(which i insisted not to!). There was minghong who was just another one. I found his weakspot and it was chinese. Think about those convesation we had, those things we discussed.

David haha, my starting memory of him was a joker who borrowed 50 dollar from me to pay something. Now he is not a joker but a super big joker. The master josiah was friendly right from the begaining and until this very day itself he is still friendly. Just that i have seen the sensitive side of him.

Gabriel, a whole bunch of dabulalibu to talk about indeed. A great man even tho we call you a girl. He has a long list in my head if you get what i mean(only insider knows). Just hope that he do change some of his ways.

Looking at the overall view of 31, i guess that's all for the guys team. Haha, as if! When i started observing the class, i thought that he was one who isolate from the rest. I was wrong i guess, but trust me it was a turn of events.

Elohim chor. The baka who spend most time with girls finally found out the truth. We became great friends, usually on teasing david haha. Talking about sensitive issue, doing things together. Sometimes i do hope that you wasn't a tauren. Like what the darkside says you do things your way while they do it their's.

Hey, look at the girls team and you will find a huge spartan army. More time spend on making friend. Hate that kind of situation really. Well at the very least i/we had help. ANGELINE! someone who joined the guys team. Not saying that she ain't pretty haha. Very open-minded and friendly. Tho sometimes i think that you should spend more times with the girls haha, joking i know you do!

Vanessa, whom i don't know when did i started talking to? Sometimes, i do feel like giving up changing you. Defiant and did not wanted to listen to advice. I just find that it would be better if i did, cause i didn't wanted the old things to happen again which i know will if you do not change in the future. Well, maybe that's why i talked to you more. I can't leave a person out without assist. When i said time and fated. I can't explain everything, some things are unknown to me as well.

Clara! The girl who is talented in music. David's master! I know she will go far in life. She has got more than just that. Appearing to be ''buff'' always maybe disliking guys. Even if you do not tell me about it, i know what went wrong and why did it go wrong. Don't worry clara, you will understand in future.

??? Did i miss out someone? Haha, i suppose i did. Who was the first girl i talked to in the class? Carissa chin shan wen. Someone who has got a super short list in my mind. Why so? She doesn't have much flaws you know. Well, maybe i did tease her too much until she dislike me. Telling her lame jokes, haha. Don't know why but i find it very easy talking to her. Very. I don't know why but there came a moment where i really didn't wanted her to say she hate me. Like throwing a knife at me i supposed. Well, with my character who will not hate me i guess. Haha stop bullying frank ok?

The whole of nyjc doesn't stop here. I have met like maybe at least 100 plus to 200 friend. I am scare that my brain reject some of them slowly. If i do not say hi one day please remind me about it. I suppose that wouldn't happen.

Just today i got like 10 plus friendly taps, 3 friendly hits, countless of hello.

You know minghong? If you didn't tell me about it during boat ride. I might not have made a decision. You were the one who whack me straight in the head.

Certain things have changed, but at least i did find one thing. The feeling i lost so many years ago, i am pretty sure i found it. I just don't want the same thing to happen that's why. Don't tell me the same sentence. I will not accept it.

Cheers! My life is so short that it can be typed out in one short post. Nah, i do have more things to say but i guess time is crucial.

Have fun.

Stay by my side and give me the mental strength.