Just not the time for me to type much since i didn't ate much today haha. No energy!
Let it show it all.
Monday, March 29, 2010
Memories are there forever.
That's for me anyway since i can't seem to forget anything easily.
Just not the time for me to type much since i didn't ate much today haha. No energy!
Let it show it all.
Just not the time for me to type much since i didn't ate much today haha. No energy!
Let it show it all.
I wanna sleep early!
Haiyo, see la friday- Watched when in rome with victoria, lynda and zhiquan. Saturday napfa and i went home to sleep until night time cause i was super exhausted.
Today celebrated andrew's birthday with loon and beaver and now i am slogging to complete econs assignment with elohim haha.
Cannot believe this man, we are like discussing about econs then we moved on to the topic about why do time always seep pass so easily. Then i said cause we spend too much time on our hair hahaha.
Sorry but no i cannot cut mohawk la, my hair texture too light. Yeah, i have decided to move out of my flat and long and boring hairstyle. I want something light on top haha.
Alright then i have to move back to my econs assignment... Lucky school is at 1000 tomorrow muahaha, cause i don't have lit in the morning.
Yawn, let there be light.
Talking about different hair product now lol. At 131 and both of us have not finish up econs yet.
Tomorrow morning i am going to solo out history project before H1 somemore. Hope i can do it.
Give me some strength and hope (:
Because if all else are lost, we fight with hope in our mind!
Today celebrated andrew's birthday with loon and beaver and now i am slogging to complete econs assignment with elohim haha.
Cannot believe this man, we are like discussing about econs then we moved on to the topic about why do time always seep pass so easily. Then i said cause we spend too much time on our hair hahaha.
Sorry but no i cannot cut mohawk la, my hair texture too light. Yeah, i have decided to move out of my flat and long and boring hairstyle. I want something light on top haha.
Alright then i have to move back to my econs assignment... Lucky school is at 1000 tomorrow muahaha, cause i don't have lit in the morning.
Yawn, let there be light.
Talking about different hair product now lol. At 131 and both of us have not finish up econs yet.
Tomorrow morning i am going to solo out history project before H1 somemore. Hope i can do it.
Give me some strength and hope (:
Because if all else are lost, we fight with hope in our mind!
Sunday, March 28, 2010
Detest looking back
Then i get to see why it's all happening like this. Hey, at least that reminds me that i deserve it.
Haha, andrew's birthday today. So... A rushed one i supposed. Really don't want to have things that simple. I bet the rest are still sleeping like little pigs so oh well, might as well take this time to accomplish something. Just unhappy that i might have to go home earlier.
Hey, does that karma thingy still applies to the outside? Seriously i don't think that it works out that way. Why do i always see those people who think that they are not that great to eventually turned out to be superb.
You know why?
Because the karma theory on looks have been proven wrong.
Hey, i am all ready to pay for my own. Nothing will ever change that fact (:
Question me why don't i answer your question? Maybe there isn't one, the fact is i just want to stop talking about it. I don't see a point because... There's no point. I may feel tired but that's not the case. (: You will get it.
Tunnel vision in that aspect might actually turn out good haha.
Huaalaa, life's great now! Because it is just great!
Haha, andrew's birthday today. So... A rushed one i supposed. Really don't want to have things that simple. I bet the rest are still sleeping like little pigs so oh well, might as well take this time to accomplish something. Just unhappy that i might have to go home earlier.
Hey, does that karma thingy still applies to the outside? Seriously i don't think that it works out that way. Why do i always see those people who think that they are not that great to eventually turned out to be superb.
You know why?
Because the karma theory on looks have been proven wrong.
Hey, i am all ready to pay for my own. Nothing will ever change that fact (:
Question me why don't i answer your question? Maybe there isn't one, the fact is i just want to stop talking about it. I don't see a point because... There's no point. I may feel tired but that's not the case. (: You will get it.
Tunnel vision in that aspect might actually turn out good haha.
Huaalaa, life's great now! Because it is just great!
Saturday, March 27, 2010
You ever felt that before?
Many times.
Alright, napfa time! HAHAHA! A miracle happened today really (: PASS for SBJ. I WAS LIKE WHAT THE DALIBABUBA I PASSED YESSSS. Pull up was last station for 5 items i was feeling facepalm because they put my best item at the last part.
In the end, my pull up ended up with 14. Was aimming for 16 times. But i guess i lost strength. Must be the day before throw too many javelins la.
Really don't feel like typing much haha.
Guess how did i managed to pass SBJ?
(:
Ps, i felt like shitting on the fourth lap of 2.4. ): Carl's junior 14 dollar meal the day before must be the cause ARGHHH.
Oh and those of you who run slower for 2.4, mind running the outer lane? Really piss at people who are so inconsiderate especially those who intentionally stay put and DO NOT BUDGE.
Need more training haha.
So many times i heard people talking about it.
So many times i laughed at them.
So many times i felt that they were ignorant.
So many times i know that it will never turn out that way.
So many times, just so many times.
All that ever matters is not what you say.
Don't believe in that.
Will never. This is karma. For my actions.
Time never existed so it's ok (:
Alright, napfa time! HAHAHA! A miracle happened today really (: PASS for SBJ. I WAS LIKE WHAT THE DALIBABUBA I PASSED YESSSS. Pull up was last station for 5 items i was feeling facepalm because they put my best item at the last part.
In the end, my pull up ended up with 14. Was aimming for 16 times. But i guess i lost strength. Must be the day before throw too many javelins la.
Really don't feel like typing much haha.
Guess how did i managed to pass SBJ?
(:
Ps, i felt like shitting on the fourth lap of 2.4. ): Carl's junior 14 dollar meal the day before must be the cause ARGHHH.
Oh and those of you who run slower for 2.4, mind running the outer lane? Really piss at people who are so inconsiderate especially those who intentionally stay put and DO NOT BUDGE.
Need more training haha.
So many times i heard people talking about it.
So many times i laughed at them.
So many times i felt that they were ignorant.
So many times i know that it will never turn out that way.
So many times, just so many times.
All that ever matters is not what you say.
Don't believe in that.
Will never. This is karma. For my actions.
Time never existed so it's ok (:
Friday, March 26, 2010
YAAATAAA Eureka like dababilaluu
So what have i done today? Oh, i went to do many many pull ups and 0 tries of Standing broad jump ):
If only 5 pull ups can be use to be converted into 5 cm of the SBJ. I will still get A in pull ups plus a pass in SBJ for certain. Like what the dabalibuba la.
If only if only, i swear if i pass my SBJ, 2.4- 10.20sec i am coming for you. I will definitely do it/make it/hit the end with a sprint.
So early release today for helping out at the kid's sport competition or something. I don't know what is it called. Haha, it seem like i still have not lost my touch with the primary school kids.
Sorry elohim for leaving you there when i went on to mix with the other kids. Haha, catching was certainly fun but i got exhausted kindda easily under the scorching sun. I felt acute stitch because i didn't have my lunch or drank much water throughout the day.
Thanks angeline for losing the ball those kids gave me. At least the planting lesson that marcus taught me is still in my mind lol. Damn cute la, primary 4 teach jc2 science leh muahaha.
Primary school education nowadays are really bad. They are seriously pushing the kids too far out. They will lose a lot of fuel when they move on in life la. Take it slowly ma, if they don't listen to you they just don't listen. Forcing is not effective at all.
You need them to learn themselves.
Alright then i am damn tired tired tired, boys go study hard and stop playing catching... I don't care if you are gold medalist in sports day or what. You are P4 SO YOU SHOULD STUDY! Stop giving me ''flowers'' in the end i didn't take them home dot dot dot.
Really will miss those kids that i shall never see again. To think they asked for my name and i said ''catcher''.
In the end when i said lawrence, they said that it was a nice name.
Thanks. (:
Ever felt in the situation whereby you are just angry when other people say things about other people and you can't do a shit?
Then you became shit. Because you used the wrong approach...
If only 5 pull ups can be use to be converted into 5 cm of the SBJ. I will still get A in pull ups plus a pass in SBJ for certain. Like what the dabalibuba la.
If only if only, i swear if i pass my SBJ, 2.4- 10.20sec i am coming for you. I will definitely do it/make it/hit the end with a sprint.
So early release today for helping out at the kid's sport competition or something. I don't know what is it called. Haha, it seem like i still have not lost my touch with the primary school kids.
Sorry elohim for leaving you there when i went on to mix with the other kids. Haha, catching was certainly fun but i got exhausted kindda easily under the scorching sun. I felt acute stitch because i didn't have my lunch or drank much water throughout the day.
Thanks angeline for losing the ball those kids gave me. At least the planting lesson that marcus taught me is still in my mind lol. Damn cute la, primary 4 teach jc2 science leh muahaha.
Primary school education nowadays are really bad. They are seriously pushing the kids too far out. They will lose a lot of fuel when they move on in life la. Take it slowly ma, if they don't listen to you they just don't listen. Forcing is not effective at all.
You need them to learn themselves.
Alright then i am damn tired tired tired, boys go study hard and stop playing catching... I don't care if you are gold medalist in sports day or what. You are P4 SO YOU SHOULD STUDY! Stop giving me ''flowers'' in the end i didn't take them home dot dot dot.
Really will miss those kids that i shall never see again. To think they asked for my name and i said ''catcher''.
In the end when i said lawrence, they said that it was a nice name.
Thanks. (:
Ever felt in the situation whereby you are just angry when other people say things about other people and you can't do a shit?
Then you became shit. Because you used the wrong approach...
Thursday, March 25, 2010
I typed this title for 20 times.
Just to delete it because i have to.
So i had a tedious week. Tomorrow should be getting better because i get to see kids running and playing about. Those days where you can talk to someone without any worries. Haha, i think i might just join in with them and do silly things.
Early release for like 1 hour? Hey, i have to pay back until 5pm ok.
You know that they have came up with the theory of 11th dimension for some time now. What is the 11th dimension? It just means that there might be someone who are watching over us from another point.
I came to the conclusion whereby everything we are doing now are actually illusions.
Only when in illusions can things be created out of nothing. Why is it that when there's nothing something can be created? When it is possible for the whole dimension. I can see how possible it is to do it in this 3d dimension.
Alright, cut the bullshit and you will know that i am trying to say something but i can't.
See, i move forward i see a pillar. I try to continue and i am scare that the pillar might not be able to handle the sight and eventually slam into me. Why is it so? Because that pillar is something and that pillar have got feelings and that pillar is not sleeping(as far as i observe) and i don't want to do anything bad to that pillar.
You tell me what now?
Tell me what to do? Tell me? Come on? Tell? Say? Actually i don't want to listen to things you guys tell me. Really, not very helpful because you all don't understand.
Thanks to you the great god of the 11th dimension. You made life complicated. Hey i don't ask for much you know that.
Please don't tell me that my chance is this friendly guy called josiah fong. Who always tell me lawlaw don't worry i will give you a hug and ask me to write about my ''love'' with him. Haha don't get the wrong idea really...
To you 11th dimension.
Time was just a concept man came up with. If it feels like a knife stabbing into your heart now. It is just basically there forever and ever and ever to the ever.
Feel like smacking my own fingers. Feel like smacking my brain because it seems to be rusting. Until the help 11th dimension gave me.
Nope last time.
Cause i have another place better than here.
Hey, actually why not don't read this whole thing? Because i am thinking too much.
Life is simple (:
Hey at least someone said something nice to me which makes me feel that i aren't that bad haha. Cause at least someone is willing to do that in exchange for something of mine. Thanks for at least saying that cause it serve as an encouragement.
(:(:(: Though i think it looks shitty now haha. Don't worry wait for it to grow. Nah, i want to try to use product on it now to see how will it go, since i see a mohawk in the making beside me(ps i meant funky hair) (: Why not HAHA?!
So i had a tedious week. Tomorrow should be getting better because i get to see kids running and playing about. Those days where you can talk to someone without any worries. Haha, i think i might just join in with them and do silly things.
Early release for like 1 hour? Hey, i have to pay back until 5pm ok.
You know that they have came up with the theory of 11th dimension for some time now. What is the 11th dimension? It just means that there might be someone who are watching over us from another point.
I came to the conclusion whereby everything we are doing now are actually illusions.
Only when in illusions can things be created out of nothing. Why is it that when there's nothing something can be created? When it is possible for the whole dimension. I can see how possible it is to do it in this 3d dimension.
Alright, cut the bullshit and you will know that i am trying to say something but i can't.
See, i move forward i see a pillar. I try to continue and i am scare that the pillar might not be able to handle the sight and eventually slam into me. Why is it so? Because that pillar is something and that pillar have got feelings and that pillar is not sleeping(as far as i observe) and i don't want to do anything bad to that pillar.
You tell me what now?
Tell me what to do? Tell me? Come on? Tell? Say? Actually i don't want to listen to things you guys tell me. Really, not very helpful because you all don't understand.
Thanks to you the great god of the 11th dimension. You made life complicated. Hey i don't ask for much you know that.
Please don't tell me that my chance is this friendly guy called josiah fong. Who always tell me lawlaw don't worry i will give you a hug and ask me to write about my ''love'' with him. Haha don't get the wrong idea really...
To you 11th dimension.
Time was just a concept man came up with. If it feels like a knife stabbing into your heart now. It is just basically there forever and ever and ever to the ever.
Feel like smacking my own fingers. Feel like smacking my brain because it seems to be rusting. Until the help 11th dimension gave me.
Nope last time.
Cause i have another place better than here.
Hey, actually why not don't read this whole thing? Because i am thinking too much.
Life is simple (:
Hey at least someone said something nice to me which makes me feel that i aren't that bad haha. Cause at least someone is willing to do that in exchange for something of mine. Thanks for at least saying that cause it serve as an encouragement.
(:(:(: Though i think it looks shitty now haha. Don't worry wait for it to grow. Nah, i want to try to use product on it now to see how will it go, since i see a mohawk in the making beside me(ps i meant funky hair) (: Why not HAHA?!
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Chan ma di chan hey hey
I felt like a complete fool. Maybe that's why i got treated like one. I don't know if that attitude was shown to ___ me. Like dot i didn't even realised that the form was at the back. Hey, i don't even know what happened. No chance. Maybe maybe maybe. It's time for me to change my actions and ignore. Not worth it.
Like why people do not at least try to understand to see if things was really that case. I am tired of having to face such things. I don't even want to bother explaining. Go ahead and think what you want.
My whole body is aching badly. Arghhh maybe punching me now feels like ma sa gi to me.
Had a talk with someone WHO IS VERY FRIENDLY(You should get it). For a really long time, haha just bad that i have to leave really early to meet up with a noob to cut hair.
So in the end what? I ended up being lazy and will not bother to ever use hair products on my hair.
Thanks.
The picture seems to be forming. I hate big mouth people.
Filling disappearing bit by bit. I hate typing like this as well.
Cheers (:
Like why people do not at least try to understand to see if things was really that case. I am tired of having to face such things. I don't even want to bother explaining. Go ahead and think what you want.
My whole body is aching badly. Arghhh maybe punching me now feels like ma sa gi to me.
Had a talk with someone WHO IS VERY FRIENDLY(You should get it). For a really long time, haha just bad that i have to leave really early to meet up with a noob to cut hair.
So in the end what? I ended up being lazy and will not bother to ever use hair products on my hair.
Thanks.
The picture seems to be forming. I hate big mouth people.
Filling disappearing bit by bit. I hate typing like this as well.
Cheers (:
Monday, March 22, 2010
Sunday, March 21, 2010
...
Don't rob me of it.
You shall never be able to do it.
This time i am not going to let you do it again.
Just hate that feeling.
Darkness.
Sadly one week of holiday is never enough. Honestly if you were to ask me if i do feel that the stress level is coming up. I will answer straight, yes but that is only for math because i know that i am shit to the max in it. Like whatthedulipu are you talking about?
Alien language? Haha, like i will be using integration for what i want to be studying in the future.
But oh well, com'on is that the best you can give me? Not like i have not seen much of it in secondary school.
Honestly, i am not even giving my best yet. I know it deep down inside. I have been depending on people, luck or whatever you can think of. Maybe the teachers's mood was great.
Just not me.
Did i mentioned how much i miss yesterday's bbq already? Haha, some of whom i will not get to talk to until like one year later maybe?
JIA HAO I WANT THE GROUP PHOTOS! (: (: (:
Haha, imagine the security guard appearing in front of you and you are holding on to a piece of ice about to throw to the other side of the pool. PWN. Luckily he didn't say anything. Maybe too dark?
And yes, chun kit stop touching me lol. Meng kei hit him straight.
That's all haha, at least i enjoyed my share of joy (: Time for torture, ARGHH MAN...
HEY HEY HEY, ask me to perform the 2 hand make 2 stars trick. I WANNA I WANNA I WANNA.
but please at least be amazed by it (:
You shall never be able to do it.
This time i am not going to let you do it again.
Just hate that feeling.
Darkness.
Sadly one week of holiday is never enough. Honestly if you were to ask me if i do feel that the stress level is coming up. I will answer straight, yes but that is only for math because i know that i am shit to the max in it. Like whatthedulipu are you talking about?
Alien language? Haha, like i will be using integration for what i want to be studying in the future.
But oh well, com'on is that the best you can give me? Not like i have not seen much of it in secondary school.
Honestly, i am not even giving my best yet. I know it deep down inside. I have been depending on people, luck or whatever you can think of. Maybe the teachers's mood was great.
Just not me.
Did i mentioned how much i miss yesterday's bbq already? Haha, some of whom i will not get to talk to until like one year later maybe?
JIA HAO I WANT THE GROUP PHOTOS! (: (: (:
Haha, imagine the security guard appearing in front of you and you are holding on to a piece of ice about to throw to the other side of the pool. PWN. Luckily he didn't say anything. Maybe too dark?
And yes, chun kit stop touching me lol. Meng kei hit him straight.
That's all haha, at least i enjoyed my share of joy (: Time for torture, ARGHH MAN...
HEY HEY HEY, ask me to perform the 2 hand make 2 stars trick. I WANNA I WANNA I WANNA.
but please at least be amazed by it (:
Saturday, March 20, 2010
Can't think of one
Title problems coming back haha...
Oh looking at the weather now, hmm rainy but it seems good for my case? An ultimate slacker who just sit about all day doing no shit. A perfect weather to sleep more.
Guess what? Marist BBQ at kashing's house later. RAINING=FLOP. Oh yeah, not like my health conditions allow me to eat such stuffs at all haha.
Went to facebook to checked on stuff. That rotten place prove to be just another place where people can challenge me. Nah, that's not the point. The point is i finally saw something on it.
Like some words can't be said out in person.
I don't know maybe i am gonna use calculator language in future for my post. So what is the calculator language? (:
ARRGHHH WHERE IS THE LONG OVERDUED HAIRCUT. I am so going to smack you for making me wait so long for it. After waiting for so long i might just go from siao to SIAO and tell that guy to cut it mushroom (: Haha, i will print a mushroom from mario game. You know that mushroom monster haha.
Calm.
Take care. Yumyum.
Oh looking at the weather now, hmm rainy but it seems good for my case? An ultimate slacker who just sit about all day doing no shit. A perfect weather to sleep more.
Guess what? Marist BBQ at kashing's house later. RAINING=FLOP. Oh yeah, not like my health conditions allow me to eat such stuffs at all haha.
Went to facebook to checked on stuff. That rotten place prove to be just another place where people can challenge me. Nah, that's not the point. The point is i finally saw something on it.
Like some words can't be said out in person.
I don't know maybe i am gonna use calculator language in future for my post. So what is the calculator language? (:
ARRGHHH WHERE IS THE LONG OVERDUED HAIRCUT. I am so going to smack you for making me wait so long for it. After waiting for so long i might just go from siao to SIAO and tell that guy to cut it mushroom (: Haha, i will print a mushroom from mario game. You know that mushroom monster haha.
Calm.
Take care. Yumyum.
Friday, March 19, 2010
Thursday, March 18, 2010
Ugh
I will NEVER want to get drunk again...
Yesterday was kind of random as i was just wanting to find someone to go out with and in the end it turned up to be a small gathering haha. Oh well not really since we never plan for it to be.
Yes hongxuan thanks for abandoning us for your girlfriend.
We went to watch kaiji(i rate it 3.5/5). Hrmm, jeremy's friend said that show was bad but we decided to go along with it since the movies industries are kindda screwed up these few days with the choices like what the dabulibabu.
Zuo ren lol. As if i am still not scared of spending like 10 bucks on shows like legions. You want me to spend it on jack's neo movie.
We just decided to try to get ''high'' for once. I wanted to try it for once at least haha.
So yeah, the view at singapore's flyer wasn't exactly that good... Jeremy's camera didn't had a memory card in it haha. Which was good as well since they told me i was at peak red halfway just like 15 minutes into drinking.
Yup, my stomach was totally red. No bloodshot eyes tho. Ok, then it went on to become bad. When i kept losing the cai quan. Was trying to get andrew down first, but i went down and started drinking A&W haha.
So bailey with 17 percent alcohol wasn't enough and they bought scott with 43 percent.
The reason why i am even typing this out to remember myself about this bad incident. I puke like shit after the whole thing. So i experience the whole process you can get by drinking and i will never want to try it again.
When i was still in the mood of being ''high'', i lay down looking at the sky.
I was thinking...some things started becoming vivid. It's haunting me, because i overlooked it. Then andrew had to start singing beside me. Haha smiling for no reasons after that.
Drowning. Just let me start going back to backstreet boys songs.
When i was puking i felt really helpless. So vulnerable. Haha, imagine if i did fell into the river.
Don't drink ):
Thanks for that experience.
Yesterday was kind of random as i was just wanting to find someone to go out with and in the end it turned up to be a small gathering haha. Oh well not really since we never plan for it to be.
Yes hongxuan thanks for abandoning us for your girlfriend.
We went to watch kaiji(i rate it 3.5/5). Hrmm, jeremy's friend said that show was bad but we decided to go along with it since the movies industries are kindda screwed up these few days with the choices like what the dabulibabu.
Zuo ren lol. As if i am still not scared of spending like 10 bucks on shows like legions. You want me to spend it on jack's neo movie.
We just decided to try to get ''high'' for once. I wanted to try it for once at least haha.
So yeah, the view at singapore's flyer wasn't exactly that good... Jeremy's camera didn't had a memory card in it haha. Which was good as well since they told me i was at peak red halfway just like 15 minutes into drinking.
Yup, my stomach was totally red. No bloodshot eyes tho. Ok, then it went on to become bad. When i kept losing the cai quan. Was trying to get andrew down first, but i went down and started drinking A&W haha.
So bailey with 17 percent alcohol wasn't enough and they bought scott with 43 percent.
The reason why i am even typing this out to remember myself about this bad incident. I puke like shit after the whole thing. So i experience the whole process you can get by drinking and i will never want to try it again.
When i was still in the mood of being ''high'', i lay down looking at the sky.
I was thinking...some things started becoming vivid. It's haunting me, because i overlooked it. Then andrew had to start singing beside me. Haha smiling for no reasons after that.
Drowning. Just let me start going back to backstreet boys songs.
When i was puking i felt really helpless. So vulnerable. Haha, imagine if i did fell into the river.
Don't drink ):
Thanks for that experience.
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
ooooN
I tried, i pushed on. I still failed.
Couldn't run 20 laps anymore with that speed. 8km only and i couldn't do it. Maybe the strain on my legs were still there. Or perhaps for some other reasons. Like the weather, the atmosphere.
Or just that pushing factor.
I look at that sentence and i questioned myself about it. All i can say is this place is dangerous for such stuff. I am moving on. If i doesn't show, doesn't say, doesn't type it out. It doesn't mean that it's not there. Because it is located at somewhere. Thinking twice before typing out is stupid.
Until then, being normal is what i have been trying to do all these while.
(: It's my life.
Couldn't run 20 laps anymore with that speed. 8km only and i couldn't do it. Maybe the strain on my legs were still there. Or perhaps for some other reasons. Like the weather, the atmosphere.
Or just that pushing factor.
I look at that sentence and i questioned myself about it. All i can say is this place is dangerous for such stuff. I am moving on. If i doesn't show, doesn't say, doesn't type it out. It doesn't mean that it's not there. Because it is located at somewhere. Thinking twice before typing out is stupid.
Until then, being normal is what i have been trying to do all these while.
(: It's my life.
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
nadnaijnehia
I don't know why but i woke up with my head spinning about again. Ok, i am one big slacker who woke up only at 1 pm.
In fact i was still in a daze until my dad asked me to wake up for LUNCH. Haha, he was like telling me if i was training to be a deity that can survive without eating.
I told him no la, 3 in 1 will be good enough already. Breakfast, Lunch& Dinner All in one. Hey i tried that so many times ok! ''Haha, not advise to be perform on yourself without experts supervision.''
So why was i up until so late? Some idoit whose name i shall not mention have told me something. Then when i was on the verge of saying yes i will do it. He said there was still something else. Go eat shit man. Told you to do it but you had to give me 2 sides again.
Don't want to talk to you anymore!
Anyway, at least i think that it will just be like that (:
Hey that vertical line is still there. I think i should get it checked by the end of this week.
For now, i think i have to whack myself on the head with a rod on the right side to counter the effect.
(Ps: I have to add in this)
(Goodluck trying to read anything)
Take care peeps.
~
In fact i was still in a daze until my dad asked me to wake up for LUNCH. Haha, he was like telling me if i was training to be a deity that can survive without eating.
I told him no la, 3 in 1 will be good enough already. Breakfast, Lunch& Dinner All in one. Hey i tried that so many times ok! ''Haha, not advise to be perform on yourself without experts supervision.''
So why was i up until so late? Some idoit whose name i shall not mention have told me something. Then when i was on the verge of saying yes i will do it. He said there was still something else. Go eat shit man. Told you to do it but you had to give me 2 sides again.
Don't want to talk to you anymore!
Anyway, at least i think that it will just be like that (:
Hey that vertical line is still there. I think i should get it checked by the end of this week.
For now, i think i have to whack myself on the head with a rod on the right side to counter the effect.
(Ps: I have to add in this)
(Goodluck trying to read anything)
Take care peeps.
~
Monday, March 15, 2010
Wow
Just wow. Not world of warcraft but WOW.
Today there was geography lecture. Skip typing about that obviously how fun can a lecture goes? Except going to the toilet 3 times since there was actually some breaks. Had several chat during that 6 times.
Cycling hmmm. I wanted to go there. Well, for the views.
Views? Haha, don't think too far please. I am talking about the sea views.
It was really nice today you know, i couldn't take my eyes off them. The blue plus dark blue and slightly white patch sky. Plus some trees and wind blowing.
I felt peace and calmness inside me.
Until victoria have to say- Lawrence do you like ambience? I replyed of course.
She freaking said, oh liking ambience is the first sign of flirting personality.
OK, i get the message thanks. So i should go back to the normal views. At least i don't get called a flirt by doing so lol.
Thanks so much Hahaha.
No really... The view was superb. Elohim is crying to me about how he was not there lol.
Nice (: For the first time east coast have provided something for me to go back again. So many times and i only see the same old boring things. If junyuan didn't wanted to go cycling i think that i wouldn't have actually been there so many times.
Just love it!
Today there was geography lecture. Skip typing about that obviously how fun can a lecture goes? Except going to the toilet 3 times since there was actually some breaks. Had several chat during that 6 times.
Cycling hmmm. I wanted to go there. Well, for the views.
Views? Haha, don't think too far please. I am talking about the sea views.
It was really nice today you know, i couldn't take my eyes off them. The blue plus dark blue and slightly white patch sky. Plus some trees and wind blowing.
I felt peace and calmness inside me.
Until victoria have to say- Lawrence do you like ambience? I replyed of course.
She freaking said, oh liking ambience is the first sign of flirting personality.
OK, i get the message thanks. So i should go back to the normal views. At least i don't get called a flirt by doing so lol.
Thanks so much Hahaha.
No really... The view was superb. Elohim is crying to me about how he was not there lol.
Nice (: For the first time east coast have provided something for me to go back again. So many times and i only see the same old boring things. If junyuan didn't wanted to go cycling i think that i wouldn't have actually been there so many times.
Just love it!
Tada
That vertical line is still there. I am really scared that it is not benign.
Dot, the weather is like so warm!!! 35degrees is not acceptable. Stop all those global warming activites now.
Yesterday i realise maybe it was indeed too shaggy. Perhaps you are correct, i am wrong. So i got to do something about it this week. Shaggy hmmm, you meant flat haha.
Hope all goes well then (:
Nicholas you know the moment you told me about that. I knew that you were correct. Many people have in fact told me about it. However i have to say-
That's my job.
Maybe, i should try tho. (: Hope to see all those smiles again.
Nope not maybe. I WILL.
:D
Dot, the weather is like so warm!!! 35degrees is not acceptable. Stop all those global warming activites now.
Yesterday i realise maybe it was indeed too shaggy. Perhaps you are correct, i am wrong. So i got to do something about it this week. Shaggy hmmm, you meant flat haha.
Hope all goes well then (:
Nicholas you know the moment you told me about that. I knew that you were correct. Many people have in fact told me about it. However i have to say-
That's my job.
Maybe, i should try tho. (: Hope to see all those smiles again.
Nope not maybe. I WILL.
:D
Kuishinbo
Blaaa, to be honest i was kindda disappointed at the dinner... 150 dollars i think we can just find a restaurant where 3 person can enjoy good food instead of just walking round and round.
Hmmm, at least i did like the environment. Maybe it was the people that caused the dinner to be over-rated.
Oh well, Woke up really late(9?) since i was up on msn until 4? Wasn't actually intending to go out today. I just couldn't sit on my butt at home. Luckily something did happened today haha.
I really enjoyed the day. Just that it was quite tiring. Haha, continue hinting to me that you want that 3k katana. Like as if i can afford a 3k katana! Uhh, 300 dollar maybe laa. Then again, why not buy 3 robots if it was 300 dollar. Like 3 gundam would be better wouldn't it? At least there is one for each of us LOL. Sorry, don't hint me about your present!
Thinking about it, i do have geography lecture tomorrow. Better sleep now...
I just feel like sleeping. Don't know why but when i stand at the weighing machine, it shows me 55kg.
I can't even believe it. Still choose to not believe it. I am at the very least 58kg. Why am i becoming thinner...
Sleep.
Sleep.
Sleep.
Snore.
Bam.
Hmmm?
(Don't bother me i am really tired) awww.
Bam.
Sleep.
I totally want to just pat that pikachu's head again. So big, i almost wanted to kick the butt as well haha.
Hmmm, at least i did like the environment. Maybe it was the people that caused the dinner to be over-rated.
Oh well, Woke up really late(9?) since i was up on msn until 4? Wasn't actually intending to go out today. I just couldn't sit on my butt at home. Luckily something did happened today haha.
I really enjoyed the day. Just that it was quite tiring. Haha, continue hinting to me that you want that 3k katana. Like as if i can afford a 3k katana! Uhh, 300 dollar maybe laa. Then again, why not buy 3 robots if it was 300 dollar. Like 3 gundam would be better wouldn't it? At least there is one for each of us LOL. Sorry, don't hint me about your present!
Thinking about it, i do have geography lecture tomorrow. Better sleep now...
I just feel like sleeping. Don't know why but when i stand at the weighing machine, it shows me 55kg.
I can't even believe it. Still choose to not believe it. I am at the very least 58kg. Why am i becoming thinner...
Sleep.
Sleep.
Sleep.
Snore.
Bam.
Hmmm?
(Don't bother me i am really tired) awww.
Bam.
Sleep.
I totally want to just pat that pikachu's head again. So big, i almost wanted to kick the butt as well haha.
Saturday, March 13, 2010
Hey
Hey, today is saturday. The weather looks uhh, rainy? Perhaps it needed to let go of that heavy workload it have been carrying. Perhaps it decided to let it down here because it just can't be bothered anymore.
I suppose when it gives me the idea that it can't be bothered anymore, it was obviously bothered about it.
Swooo, go away bad weather, i don't need your accompany. I don't need you to make me feel sleepy.
Woke up today feeling slightly happy that it was holiday! I can't forget about my mistakes tho... A bad thing since the human brain was supposed to only remember 5 percent of what you learnt the day before.
Why does it have to be in that 5 percent i don't know, should be because i learnt nothing the day before hahaha. Empty brain= capable of storing such stuff...
Was thinking about reading a book. Something that allows me to think about. Something good, haha or shall i put it simple. Improve my GP grades. Like that will ever happen when i am competing with people like zhiquan whose vocab knowledge is like totally imba.
Nah, don't think towards the direction of improving grades ok? Not a mugger.
Let's see what am i going to do during next week. Really glad that it is holiday time! Time for a break. Break break break bread bread bread. Hey, that means more FOOD, oh yeah. Too bad BBQ session with the guys aren't during this week. Actually we can have it at my parents hougang house lol. Don't know if you guys want tho... Weird la, since we are not even staying there.
I needed to talk to more people to help myself.
Can't wait to see old faces and catch up on what they are doing recently.
Oh yeah not to forget about owning someone a dinner that will most probably burn a megahole in my pocket haha.
The food will be great i know, but i just look forward to fooling around with you lol.
Maybe i was wrong in my doings. Maybe i was unfair. Maybe i was blinded. Maybe i was not neutral.
Just wanted to let you know that i gave considerations about how you feel.
My actions are showing otherwise i know. I just felt like letting down everything. Don't worry, i will fufil my promise. If you want to that is...
Thanks for what you have done.
I wanted to say when will anyone spare a thought about me. I guess i do not have any rights to say that.
The moody cloud has indeed started raining...
But in my mind i know that i will see the Sun coming up brighter than before due to the contrast.
I see hope.
I suppose when it gives me the idea that it can't be bothered anymore, it was obviously bothered about it.
Swooo, go away bad weather, i don't need your accompany. I don't need you to make me feel sleepy.
Woke up today feeling slightly happy that it was holiday! I can't forget about my mistakes tho... A bad thing since the human brain was supposed to only remember 5 percent of what you learnt the day before.
Why does it have to be in that 5 percent i don't know, should be because i learnt nothing the day before hahaha. Empty brain= capable of storing such stuff...
Was thinking about reading a book. Something that allows me to think about. Something good, haha or shall i put it simple. Improve my GP grades. Like that will ever happen when i am competing with people like zhiquan whose vocab knowledge is like totally imba.
Nah, don't think towards the direction of improving grades ok? Not a mugger.
Let's see what am i going to do during next week. Really glad that it is holiday time! Time for a break. Break break break bread bread bread. Hey, that means more FOOD, oh yeah. Too bad BBQ session with the guys aren't during this week. Actually we can have it at my parents hougang house lol. Don't know if you guys want tho... Weird la, since we are not even staying there.
I needed to talk to more people to help myself.
Can't wait to see old faces and catch up on what they are doing recently.
Oh yeah not to forget about owning someone a dinner that will most probably burn a megahole in my pocket haha.
The food will be great i know, but i just look forward to fooling around with you lol.
Maybe i was wrong in my doings. Maybe i was unfair. Maybe i was blinded. Maybe i was not neutral.
Just wanted to let you know that i gave considerations about how you feel.
My actions are showing otherwise i know. I just felt like letting down everything. Don't worry, i will fufil my promise. If you want to that is...
Thanks for what you have done.
I wanted to say when will anyone spare a thought about me. I guess i do not have any rights to say that.
The moody cloud has indeed started raining...
But in my mind i know that i will see the Sun coming up brighter than before due to the contrast.
I see hope.
Friday, March 12, 2010
Maybe
I am not going to type it out here. Thanks to someone whom i knew i couldn't trust but i still did.
So today is going to be the last day before the march holidays. Not like i have anything on that one week... Like nothing planned at all. I guess it was meant for people to study more.
Today was just another running day. Nothing but just physical and more physical. Tried doing david's sprinting training method. Totally fail as i could only win him in one round. And that is my fresh round while it was like his no 99999 rounds?
Hey, but at least i had the feeling of sprinting again. Kindda fun when you let the other person to lead in front of you first while knowing that you can overtake him after 10 metres. Haha, the feeling is just great when you accelerate.
2 sentences can change everything.
When i needed someone to talk to, it seems like i cannot find anyone at all. When i managed to accept it myself, they popped up.
Just to eat my one and only lunch for the whole day. Like seriously, how can take 1 becomes take all?
You own me like 200 seaweed balls.
Just joking (:
So today is going to be the last day before the march holidays. Not like i have anything on that one week... Like nothing planned at all. I guess it was meant for people to study more.
Today was just another running day. Nothing but just physical and more physical. Tried doing david's sprinting training method. Totally fail as i could only win him in one round. And that is my fresh round while it was like his no 99999 rounds?
Hey, but at least i had the feeling of sprinting again. Kindda fun when you let the other person to lead in front of you first while knowing that you can overtake him after 10 metres. Haha, the feeling is just great when you accelerate.
2 sentences can change everything.
When i needed someone to talk to, it seems like i cannot find anyone at all. When i managed to accept it myself, they popped up.
Just to eat my one and only lunch for the whole day. Like seriously, how can take 1 becomes take all?
You own me like 200 seaweed balls.
Just joking (:
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Olesanjong
Hiya! Do you see the blue sky up there? Actually i did saw a sky full of bright lights, so bright that i can't see anything blue.
Eh, today was actually hectic. I own someone that i am still capable of typing this post out. However eating on such friendship certainly will not last long as i do not have the capability myself.
Alice in underland again? Sorry... Well, percy jackson. Ask me that i will say yes!
To be honest i was really afraid that things went on the wrong way today, at least it doesn't seems to be that case. My greatest fear seems to be over already, luckily i managed to clear things at so many ends.
Thankful.
Hopeful.
Grateful.
Thinking.
Eh, today was actually hectic. I own someone that i am still capable of typing this post out. However eating on such friendship certainly will not last long as i do not have the capability myself.
Alice in underland again? Sorry... Well, percy jackson. Ask me that i will say yes!
To be honest i was really afraid that things went on the wrong way today, at least it doesn't seems to be that case. My greatest fear seems to be over already, luckily i managed to clear things at so many ends.
Thankful.
Hopeful.
Grateful.
Thinking.
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
TTM
Nic thanks for saying that! Tho i might be unhappy that you didn't increase my score on your chart zzz. It give me some confidence when someone say that ok.
Today was perhaps another time-wasting day. Yes, career-seminar. dot dot. Sorry elohim i tap the card late cause i didn't wanted to waste 10 bucks on taxi as my parent's car had some problem so i had to go to school myself.
Well, not exactly late la. Just maybe like 2 minutes or so? So i guess they will still count it as late.
Thanks leon, thank you for telling me so late. Waste my time doing what i did la. I shouldn't have even made them laugh at all, just wanted to assist you and try to pull you up from the long stoning session. Like when will you start moving your ass and do something haha.
Well, Went to watch a movie and guess what? Alice in underland again. Yes again, i watched it twice.
Getting isolated is really a bad thing, thank you guys. Have faith i shall.
Yadi, remember what we talk about during H1 history. Don't forget about it but just look straight. Haha, history lecture sorry peeps! I think it is my third time not listening. Third time...
That's all folks. Stay tune for more dabulibaabuucrap from me.
I do enjoy some accompany.
No more fedor please, don't change your mind cause you are doing the wrong things!
Some things can be so simple, don't complicate it.
You know why it doesn't matter? Because it is unconditional. I don't have to listen to anything. Receive anything. Or as a matter of fact, it can be a vacuum.
Bring it on! The flowers will always bloom twice, and i will make it to the end.
Today was perhaps another time-wasting day. Yes, career-seminar. dot dot. Sorry elohim i tap the card late cause i didn't wanted to waste 10 bucks on taxi as my parent's car had some problem so i had to go to school myself.
Well, not exactly late la. Just maybe like 2 minutes or so? So i guess they will still count it as late.
Thanks leon, thank you for telling me so late. Waste my time doing what i did la. I shouldn't have even made them laugh at all, just wanted to assist you and try to pull you up from the long stoning session. Like when will you start moving your ass and do something haha.
Well, Went to watch a movie and guess what? Alice in underland again. Yes again, i watched it twice.
Getting isolated is really a bad thing, thank you guys. Have faith i shall.
Yadi, remember what we talk about during H1 history. Don't forget about it but just look straight. Haha, history lecture sorry peeps! I think it is my third time not listening. Third time...
That's all folks. Stay tune for more dabulibaabuucrap from me.
I do enjoy some accompany.
No more fedor please, don't change your mind cause you are doing the wrong things!
Some things can be so simple, don't complicate it.
You know why it doesn't matter? Because it is unconditional. I don't have to listen to anything. Receive anything. Or as a matter of fact, it can be a vacuum.
Bring it on! The flowers will always bloom twice, and i will make it to the end.
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Inspired
By someone whom i will mention later on.
Actually i did reflected about what have been going on for these 1 plus years. Well, for my kind of brain obviously it would be a natural thing. I am just looking back at it like a big picture. A super big one. Bigger than the blue sky.
When i first joined nyjc, all i knew was that i made a stupid major mistake joining CLEP. Well, not really a mistake because my chinese was really fine, i guess spending about one year not speaking or writing chinese certainly affected it. Well, A1 in mid-year will lead to that, doing math during chinese lesson...
The teachers were like worried about my chinese, totally when i was in 0935. When i was in the class i questioned about the state. Like everyone in there had like 13^ L1R5. So why the heck was i doing there? I didn't even need the extra 2 points to come in so why am i ''forced'' to take that combi. Well, there was bound to be more idoits in this world and bam i met teck kiang. A nice 5 pointer who did the same thing haha. Still remember those days where when we both decided to drop from H2 chinese? Laughing at ourselves cause we changed the meaning of poems and text. Our favourite? Haha, sick stuff about li bai.
Well, i still do call him a loser and he call me idoit.
Jerrold, Boon kit, siming, Joel, Junling, Shi hao and teck kiang. It was never meant to be from the start. So little guys... Weird, since i am from a boys school.
You know being in a boys school stinks? Haha, it changes you slowly bit by bit until some finally becomes weird. I suppose i am one of them. The first time i understand about feeling was probably during Primary 6. It lasted from Primary 4 to sec 2. Well techically only 2 years as i only get the idea at P6. It was great, it was like unexplainable.
Things did turn bad, a story where just nice her dad have to die. Her mum wanted her back into indonesia. Now you get it? Maybe that's why i have affinity with indonesians. Andrew, chayadi. Haha 2 of my Bestfriend are indos. She told me i will find someone better, someone much better because things were indeed getting messy then. Like as if i can accept it. I just had to be that idoit who just wanted to stay by her and see her to the end. She changed during sec2 and i woke up from my stupid journey.
Well, 4 years after primary school. Many guys from boys school would say it was indeed a good experience for once to be in a mixed school. I found it hard to differentiate the feeling. It may seem to be the case but i know it when i have it. I just know it.
Dropping out from 35, i went into 31. Another mis-planned as i did not ended up in Yadi/KS class. I didn't ended up in science classes as well. Like what the dabilabillooobullcow, since my physic was good. I went back to challenge geo which disappointed me by giving me 2 years of A1 and 1 time B3. Like go hell man, i might not have even ended up in nyjc. Thanks god i did, really i have to.
Ever wonder why i kept mentioning that it was fated?
Skipping 32 and ending up in 31. I didn't wanted to start making friend all over again, but i had no choice. Really just no choice. Same old situation whereby there are so little guys. Imagine my first person whom i talked to was Zhi quan? In my mind i was like, com'on you really have to test my EQ by letting me crack his mind open. Someone whom many say is living in his own world. I did it... Now he is sticking on to me like anything pulling my bag(which i insisted not to!). There was minghong who was just another one. I found his weakspot and it was chinese. Think about those convesation we had, those things we discussed.
David haha, my starting memory of him was a joker who borrowed 50 dollar from me to pay something. Now he is not a joker but a super big joker. The master josiah was friendly right from the begaining and until this very day itself he is still friendly. Just that i have seen the sensitive side of him.
Gabriel, a whole bunch of dabulalibu to talk about indeed. A great man even tho we call you a girl. He has a long list in my head if you get what i mean(only insider knows). Just hope that he do change some of his ways.
Looking at the overall view of 31, i guess that's all for the guys team. Haha, as if! When i started observing the class, i thought that he was one who isolate from the rest. I was wrong i guess, but trust me it was a turn of events.
Elohim chor. The baka who spend most time with girls finally found out the truth. We became great friends, usually on teasing david haha. Talking about sensitive issue, doing things together. Sometimes i do hope that you wasn't a tauren. Like what the darkside says you do things your way while they do it their's.
Hey, look at the girls team and you will find a huge spartan army. More time spend on making friend. Hate that kind of situation really. Well at the very least i/we had help. ANGELINE! someone who joined the guys team. Not saying that she ain't pretty haha. Very open-minded and friendly. Tho sometimes i think that you should spend more times with the girls haha, joking i know you do!
Vanessa, whom i don't know when did i started talking to? Sometimes, i do feel like giving up changing you. Defiant and did not wanted to listen to advice. I just find that it would be better if i did, cause i didn't wanted the old things to happen again which i know will if you do not change in the future. Well, maybe that's why i talked to you more. I can't leave a person out without assist. When i said time and fated. I can't explain everything, some things are unknown to me as well.
Clara! The girl who is talented in music. David's master! I know she will go far in life. She has got more than just that. Appearing to be ''buff'' always maybe disliking guys. Even if you do not tell me about it, i know what went wrong and why did it go wrong. Don't worry clara, you will understand in future.
??? Did i miss out someone? Haha, i suppose i did. Who was the first girl i talked to in the class? Carissa chin shan wen. Someone who has got a super short list in my mind. Why so? She doesn't have much flaws you know. Well, maybe i did tease her too much until she dislike me. Telling her lame jokes, haha. Don't know why but i find it very easy talking to her. Very. I don't know why but there came a moment where i really didn't wanted her to say she hate me. Like throwing a knife at me i supposed. Well, with my character who will not hate me i guess. Haha stop bullying frank ok?
The whole of nyjc doesn't stop here. I have met like maybe at least 100 plus to 200 friend. I am scare that my brain reject some of them slowly. If i do not say hi one day please remind me about it. I suppose that wouldn't happen.
Just today i got like 10 plus friendly taps, 3 friendly hits, countless of hello.
You know minghong? If you didn't tell me about it during boat ride. I might not have made a decision. You were the one who whack me straight in the head.
Certain things have changed, but at least i did find one thing. The feeling i lost so many years ago, i am pretty sure i found it. I just don't want the same thing to happen that's why. Don't tell me the same sentence. I will not accept it.
Cheers! My life is so short that it can be typed out in one short post. Nah, i do have more things to say but i guess time is crucial.
Have fun.
Stay by my side and give me the mental strength.
Actually i did reflected about what have been going on for these 1 plus years. Well, for my kind of brain obviously it would be a natural thing. I am just looking back at it like a big picture. A super big one. Bigger than the blue sky.
When i first joined nyjc, all i knew was that i made a stupid major mistake joining CLEP. Well, not really a mistake because my chinese was really fine, i guess spending about one year not speaking or writing chinese certainly affected it. Well, A1 in mid-year will lead to that, doing math during chinese lesson...
The teachers were like worried about my chinese, totally when i was in 0935. When i was in the class i questioned about the state. Like everyone in there had like 13^ L1R5. So why the heck was i doing there? I didn't even need the extra 2 points to come in so why am i ''forced'' to take that combi. Well, there was bound to be more idoits in this world and bam i met teck kiang. A nice 5 pointer who did the same thing haha. Still remember those days where when we both decided to drop from H2 chinese? Laughing at ourselves cause we changed the meaning of poems and text. Our favourite? Haha, sick stuff about li bai.
Well, i still do call him a loser and he call me idoit.
Jerrold, Boon kit, siming, Joel, Junling, Shi hao and teck kiang. It was never meant to be from the start. So little guys... Weird, since i am from a boys school.
You know being in a boys school stinks? Haha, it changes you slowly bit by bit until some finally becomes weird. I suppose i am one of them. The first time i understand about feeling was probably during Primary 6. It lasted from Primary 4 to sec 2. Well techically only 2 years as i only get the idea at P6. It was great, it was like unexplainable.
Things did turn bad, a story where just nice her dad have to die. Her mum wanted her back into indonesia. Now you get it? Maybe that's why i have affinity with indonesians. Andrew, chayadi. Haha 2 of my Bestfriend are indos. She told me i will find someone better, someone much better because things were indeed getting messy then. Like as if i can accept it. I just had to be that idoit who just wanted to stay by her and see her to the end. She changed during sec2 and i woke up from my stupid journey.
Well, 4 years after primary school. Many guys from boys school would say it was indeed a good experience for once to be in a mixed school. I found it hard to differentiate the feeling. It may seem to be the case but i know it when i have it. I just know it.
Dropping out from 35, i went into 31. Another mis-planned as i did not ended up in Yadi/KS class. I didn't ended up in science classes as well. Like what the dabilabillooobullcow, since my physic was good. I went back to challenge geo which disappointed me by giving me 2 years of A1 and 1 time B3. Like go hell man, i might not have even ended up in nyjc. Thanks god i did, really i have to.
Ever wonder why i kept mentioning that it was fated?
Skipping 32 and ending up in 31. I didn't wanted to start making friend all over again, but i had no choice. Really just no choice. Same old situation whereby there are so little guys. Imagine my first person whom i talked to was Zhi quan? In my mind i was like, com'on you really have to test my EQ by letting me crack his mind open. Someone whom many say is living in his own world. I did it... Now he is sticking on to me like anything pulling my bag(which i insisted not to!). There was minghong who was just another one. I found his weakspot and it was chinese. Think about those convesation we had, those things we discussed.
David haha, my starting memory of him was a joker who borrowed 50 dollar from me to pay something. Now he is not a joker but a super big joker. The master josiah was friendly right from the begaining and until this very day itself he is still friendly. Just that i have seen the sensitive side of him.
Gabriel, a whole bunch of dabulalibu to talk about indeed. A great man even tho we call you a girl. He has a long list in my head if you get what i mean(only insider knows). Just hope that he do change some of his ways.
Looking at the overall view of 31, i guess that's all for the guys team. Haha, as if! When i started observing the class, i thought that he was one who isolate from the rest. I was wrong i guess, but trust me it was a turn of events.
Elohim chor. The baka who spend most time with girls finally found out the truth. We became great friends, usually on teasing david haha. Talking about sensitive issue, doing things together. Sometimes i do hope that you wasn't a tauren. Like what the darkside says you do things your way while they do it their's.
Hey, look at the girls team and you will find a huge spartan army. More time spend on making friend. Hate that kind of situation really. Well at the very least i/we had help. ANGELINE! someone who joined the guys team. Not saying that she ain't pretty haha. Very open-minded and friendly. Tho sometimes i think that you should spend more times with the girls haha, joking i know you do!
Vanessa, whom i don't know when did i started talking to? Sometimes, i do feel like giving up changing you. Defiant and did not wanted to listen to advice. I just find that it would be better if i did, cause i didn't wanted the old things to happen again which i know will if you do not change in the future. Well, maybe that's why i talked to you more. I can't leave a person out without assist. When i said time and fated. I can't explain everything, some things are unknown to me as well.
Clara! The girl who is talented in music. David's master! I know she will go far in life. She has got more than just that. Appearing to be ''buff'' always maybe disliking guys. Even if you do not tell me about it, i know what went wrong and why did it go wrong. Don't worry clara, you will understand in future.
??? Did i miss out someone? Haha, i suppose i did. Who was the first girl i talked to in the class? Carissa chin shan wen. Someone who has got a super short list in my mind. Why so? She doesn't have much flaws you know. Well, maybe i did tease her too much until she dislike me. Telling her lame jokes, haha. Don't know why but i find it very easy talking to her. Very. I don't know why but there came a moment where i really didn't wanted her to say she hate me. Like throwing a knife at me i supposed. Well, with my character who will not hate me i guess. Haha stop bullying frank ok?
The whole of nyjc doesn't stop here. I have met like maybe at least 100 plus to 200 friend. I am scare that my brain reject some of them slowly. If i do not say hi one day please remind me about it. I suppose that wouldn't happen.
Just today i got like 10 plus friendly taps, 3 friendly hits, countless of hello.
You know minghong? If you didn't tell me about it during boat ride. I might not have made a decision. You were the one who whack me straight in the head.
Certain things have changed, but at least i did find one thing. The feeling i lost so many years ago, i am pretty sure i found it. I just don't want the same thing to happen that's why. Don't tell me the same sentence. I will not accept it.
Cheers! My life is so short that it can be typed out in one short post. Nah, i do have more things to say but i guess time is crucial.
Have fun.
Stay by my side and give me the mental strength.
Silence
All i wanted was a moment of silence. My head was spinning so hard that i almost just wanted to shout at everyone to keep their mouth shut.
I have got enough stuff to think about not to mention about the noise pollution that had to make my thinking go haywire.
I was so desperate that i had to ask people to help me... The answer ended with 1 vote difference.
I was glad, deep down inside i know that i wouldn't be able to handle it well. Lucky, just lucky that the vote was on the right side.
You know today i went running with gabby. Thanks to him i had a chance to look at the sky and enjoy my moment of peace. Cause he was too determined, running 20 rounds at such a fast pace. I really admire his determination, a great person in the making if he changes his flaw.
It's time for my life to shine.
Never wanted to influence anyone, don't follow my way!
I am using my way. Wish me luck!
Even though i do not get who are you writing about, i will never give up.
I have got enough stuff to think about not to mention about the noise pollution that had to make my thinking go haywire.
I was so desperate that i had to ask people to help me... The answer ended with 1 vote difference.
I was glad, deep down inside i know that i wouldn't be able to handle it well. Lucky, just lucky that the vote was on the right side.
You know today i went running with gabby. Thanks to him i had a chance to look at the sky and enjoy my moment of peace. Cause he was too determined, running 20 rounds at such a fast pace. I really admire his determination, a great person in the making if he changes his flaw.
It's time for my life to shine.
Never wanted to influence anyone, don't follow my way!
I am using my way. Wish me luck!
Even though i do not get who are you writing about, i will never give up.
Monday, March 8, 2010
Title
Just got home and my whole body is like......
So much work to do and so little time. I think i piss off someone today haha, sorry dude you just had to make me do so, well lucky you didn't clash with me if not you might regret your actions later haha.
Should i go for geo trip? I want to go i guess.
Managed to catch up with the guys since i had a short break after H1, stay strong people we will go in together! We shall we will!
Was walking home, dragging my feet along. Moments where i felt like just relaxing and slack.
Just thinking of you made me so much stronger.
So much work to do and so little time. I think i piss off someone today haha, sorry dude you just had to make me do so, well lucky you didn't clash with me if not you might regret your actions later haha.
Should i go for geo trip? I want to go i guess.
Managed to catch up with the guys since i had a short break after H1, stay strong people we will go in together! We shall we will!
Was walking home, dragging my feet along. Moments where i felt like just relaxing and slack.
Just thinking of you made me so much stronger.
Sunday, March 7, 2010
!(*-*)!
8 in the morning. The air is still fresh. My head hurts when i got up this morning. My cough persist on, my mind still thinking about it.
Many things to be done these few days, march holidays are coming. There's much to catch up with. Dot, do you know that the human brain is only capable of registering 200 friend? At any one point of time that is the maximum, meaning you will forget old friend for the sake of new friend.
I don't know why, but that same old question kept repeating in my mind. I really wanted to know who was that person, why is he better than me, maybe i need to at least see or hear a name to feel that yea, i was indeed inferior.
Your answer kept coming back into my mind, i thought about it many times, i am pretty sure about it, my intuition should be correct.
I didn't dare, just didn't...
Who was it? At least the surname?
I almost felt like _________, when i heard -it can never be, he will kill me-
I know that was just words from someone's mouth but i was maybe sad. At least just say it can never be, the last 4 words were like telling me, hey you can go and bang your head against the wall.
Maybe one wall is not enough.
My actions might be confusing(When i leave you out to do that it was because i felt that i own her something, a favour that i have to repay back but it wasn't the same thing you know).
It was ridiculous just by listening to those speculations, super cause how the heck can that even be possible. I don't even know what to say, except it is making this thing messy.
Why was there even a speculation, i don't see why... It's my life, just leave it to me.
Hey, listen to bon jovi's it's my life. Nice song, nice way for me to act optimistic to end it off when deep down inside i know that there's no way i can be at this moment.
3 years might be enough? 4 maybe, maybe only after 5 then i might give up. All just like years before, i have a feeling it will be just like that. The phrase once bitten twice shy is total bullshit.
I am going to get bitten twice, i just never learn. Maybe the stupid goat inside me is just a dedicated one, always never learning his lesson. Stubborn you may say.
Just silently watching, will be enough. I can't, cause in the end i still wanted to look at you, even when i told myself not to turn i still did... Loser loser.
I guess you will never notice i was there, elusive actions are always not recognize, i get it, i don't want to be as well. I just want to be able to do something for you, even if you don't see it, don't hear it, don't feel it, it will still happen.
This post is full of you, you and you. When can i start typing out your name? Just know that it is you will be enough. I think you might not even know that it is you. Oh well, i am ok with that too.
Maybe my sincerity was not enough, why are there so many maybe. I hate it.
I like you.
Many things to be done these few days, march holidays are coming. There's much to catch up with. Dot, do you know that the human brain is only capable of registering 200 friend? At any one point of time that is the maximum, meaning you will forget old friend for the sake of new friend.
I don't know why, but that same old question kept repeating in my mind. I really wanted to know who was that person, why is he better than me, maybe i need to at least see or hear a name to feel that yea, i was indeed inferior.
Your answer kept coming back into my mind, i thought about it many times, i am pretty sure about it, my intuition should be correct.
I didn't dare, just didn't...
Who was it? At least the surname?
I almost felt like _________, when i heard -it can never be, he will kill me-
I know that was just words from someone's mouth but i was maybe sad. At least just say it can never be, the last 4 words were like telling me, hey you can go and bang your head against the wall.
Maybe one wall is not enough.
My actions might be confusing(When i leave you out to do that it was because i felt that i own her something, a favour that i have to repay back but it wasn't the same thing you know).
It was ridiculous just by listening to those speculations, super cause how the heck can that even be possible. I don't even know what to say, except it is making this thing messy.
Why was there even a speculation, i don't see why... It's my life, just leave it to me.
Hey, listen to bon jovi's it's my life. Nice song, nice way for me to act optimistic to end it off when deep down inside i know that there's no way i can be at this moment.
3 years might be enough? 4 maybe, maybe only after 5 then i might give up. All just like years before, i have a feeling it will be just like that. The phrase once bitten twice shy is total bullshit.
I am going to get bitten twice, i just never learn. Maybe the stupid goat inside me is just a dedicated one, always never learning his lesson. Stubborn you may say.
Just silently watching, will be enough. I can't, cause in the end i still wanted to look at you, even when i told myself not to turn i still did... Loser loser.
I guess you will never notice i was there, elusive actions are always not recognize, i get it, i don't want to be as well. I just want to be able to do something for you, even if you don't see it, don't hear it, don't feel it, it will still happen.
This post is full of you, you and you. When can i start typing out your name? Just know that it is you will be enough. I think you might not even know that it is you. Oh well, i am ok with that too.
Maybe my sincerity was not enough, why are there so many maybe. I hate it.
I like you.
Saturday, March 6, 2010
Sister
Alright after this week, ^^.
Official chinese results- A
Oral-Distinction
Ok, stop telling me i don't look like someone who can speak chinese. For those who cannot understand about the A in chinese thingy, it would mean that your final A level results is capable of adding 10 points. Like if you get 80/90 ranking point, your ranking point will be shown as 90/100. Hey, isn't that like the same thing...
A level year.
Official chinese results- A
Oral-Distinction
Ok, stop telling me i don't look like someone who can speak chinese. For those who cannot understand about the A in chinese thingy, it would mean that your final A level results is capable of adding 10 points. Like if you get 80/90 ranking point, your ranking point will be shown as 90/100. Hey, isn't that like the same thing...
A level year.
Friday, March 5, 2010
Life
Ever wonder what is life all about? I think i do now, that is to let go of things.
Hey, look at the cbox now, someone just commented A=apple, KNS. I suppose the adding of KNS= he's not happy with me getting A. I have to say GTFO my blog cause you have indeed raged me after an emotional day.
Alright, put such ''stupid'' people to one side. CB, you think you never get A for chinese you can scold people is it? Fk you, i wanted to put this to one side but you fking rage me. Cb, you think i get A for chinese for you to comment on it?
Fk you, the next person who is unhappy with me just come straight to me and tell me about it, you are going to give me a chance to punch you in your fking face.
You know i was really happy about the A, this is certainly a prove that my chinese standard is not there for shit, do you think that i will take it lying down that Chen siew lan laoshi always comment on those muggers that their chinese were good?
Do you even fking understand what is chinese about? Do you fking think that it is about scoring? Do you fking think that it is about getting A? Do you fking think that it is about studying for the sake of studying?
Do you fking think that you can get A just by mugging, and you do deserve it?
Think about it before you type shit on the cbox. I will gladly want to know which idoit type that out, especially the last part, KNS.
Wo cao ni ma de.
Now, i know who is $, i understand the KNS part cause i know him well. Super well. But i decided not to delete this post to warn against those idoits out there.
I will say, i did not say much about my chinese grade, i even fool teachers who asked me about it, they thought i freaking failed or something. I can't be bothered explaining...
***********************************************************************************
Ok, the upper post is a rage post. This is the important part about the blog title.
You know that i certainly have decided on moving on? On the first day, i have to receive such treatment from heaven to make me look back? If you do want to listen to other people's bad advice for the situation go ahead, i am not going to interfere anymore.
Don't do that anymore...? At least not in my sight, because i did what you did too... It hurts? To the extent where my breathing stopped.
Since things have to be so, please go back to the top of the title. -letting go of things-
I wonder if i can do it? I will try. I must. I can. I AM NOT GOING TO LET OTHER PEOPLE CONTROL MY LIFE.
Piss off. I hate hearing that ugly voice anymore, the more i hear it, the more past-deeds of yours are being refresh in my memory.
Hey, i have to say that my mood today went from----> Excited, no why are you doing this?, normal, sad.
First time i saw david broke down and sort of rage.
Do i deserve that A? I know that my standard in an examination would certainly be deserving, but attitude wise?
I guess not...
Like what i said, chinese examination was screwed ttm because it was testing the wrong bullshit.
I do say vulgarities, i am in a bad mood.
Do you know what has been the motivation for me to move on? If only you knew? If only you did understand. When i ran till the last lap of 20th lap. My legs felt like they were gone, my heart felt like it was dead, my brain keep telling me one and only one thing. I must not give up because if i did what is worthy of me to you?
I am doing all things with that in mind...
That shall be kept with me till the end, never to be forgotten. Thanks for it, when i have to break through that thinking i will really go back and think about it, that very thing that have been with me, the thing that made me went on.
To protect you.
I never turn around cause i knew that i must stop this thing. Do i still stand a chance?
I just need my sleep now after what i went throught today.
Wash it off. Wash it off.
Hey, look at the cbox now, someone just commented A=apple, KNS. I suppose the adding of KNS= he's not happy with me getting A. I have to say GTFO my blog cause you have indeed raged me after an emotional day.
Alright, put such ''stupid'' people to one side. CB, you think you never get A for chinese you can scold people is it? Fk you, i wanted to put this to one side but you fking rage me. Cb, you think i get A for chinese for you to comment on it?
Fk you, the next person who is unhappy with me just come straight to me and tell me about it, you are going to give me a chance to punch you in your fking face.
You know i was really happy about the A, this is certainly a prove that my chinese standard is not there for shit, do you think that i will take it lying down that Chen siew lan laoshi always comment on those muggers that their chinese were good?
Do you even fking understand what is chinese about? Do you fking think that it is about scoring? Do you fking think that it is about getting A? Do you fking think that it is about studying for the sake of studying?
Do you fking think that you can get A just by mugging, and you do deserve it?
Think about it before you type shit on the cbox. I will gladly want to know which idoit type that out, especially the last part, KNS.
Wo cao ni ma de.
Now, i know who is $, i understand the KNS part cause i know him well. Super well. But i decided not to delete this post to warn against those idoits out there.
I will say, i did not say much about my chinese grade, i even fool teachers who asked me about it, they thought i freaking failed or something. I can't be bothered explaining...
***********************************************************************************
Ok, the upper post is a rage post. This is the important part about the blog title.
You know that i certainly have decided on moving on? On the first day, i have to receive such treatment from heaven to make me look back? If you do want to listen to other people's bad advice for the situation go ahead, i am not going to interfere anymore.
Don't do that anymore...? At least not in my sight, because i did what you did too... It hurts? To the extent where my breathing stopped.
Since things have to be so, please go back to the top of the title. -letting go of things-
I wonder if i can do it? I will try. I must. I can. I AM NOT GOING TO LET OTHER PEOPLE CONTROL MY LIFE.
Piss off. I hate hearing that ugly voice anymore, the more i hear it, the more past-deeds of yours are being refresh in my memory.
Hey, i have to say that my mood today went from----> Excited, no why are you doing this?, normal, sad.
First time i saw david broke down and sort of rage.
Do i deserve that A? I know that my standard in an examination would certainly be deserving, but attitude wise?
I guess not...
Like what i said, chinese examination was screwed ttm because it was testing the wrong bullshit.
I do say vulgarities, i am in a bad mood.
Do you know what has been the motivation for me to move on? If only you knew? If only you did understand. When i ran till the last lap of 20th lap. My legs felt like they were gone, my heart felt like it was dead, my brain keep telling me one and only one thing. I must not give up because if i did what is worthy of me to you?
I am doing all things with that in mind...
That shall be kept with me till the end, never to be forgotten. Thanks for it, when i have to break through that thinking i will really go back and think about it, that very thing that have been with me, the thing that made me went on.
To protect you.
I never turn around cause i knew that i must stop this thing. Do i still stand a chance?
I just need my sleep now after what i went throught today.
Wash it off. Wash it off.
Thursday, March 4, 2010
You say
Hey. I say yo!
Hey yo hey yo, I might have to stay away soon.
Don't miss me! (Yeah, like anyone will...)
To take on the responsibility. Recently i did lose my calmness, ranting and ranting.
I am indeed sorry.
I need to change... Once again it is about changing.
You say hey, i say give me a pat to allow me to move on.
You> :)
I am really like walking down a dark path, no lights to guide me along. I must let you know that it have indeed been taking me much courage to continue this because i know what might happen if what i hoped for came true...
Hey, things might actually be better than i thought. I will look on the bright side.
I will.
^^
How many times have i turned my head back just to catch a glimpse of you?
Countless already...
Hey yo hey yo, I might have to stay away soon.
Don't miss me! (Yeah, like anyone will...)
To take on the responsibility. Recently i did lose my calmness, ranting and ranting.
I am indeed sorry.
I need to change... Once again it is about changing.
You say hey, i say give me a pat to allow me to move on.
You> :)
I am really like walking down a dark path, no lights to guide me along. I must let you know that it have indeed been taking me much courage to continue this because i know what might happen if what i hoped for came true...
Hey, things might actually be better than i thought. I will look on the bright side.
I will.
^^
How many times have i turned my head back just to catch a glimpse of you?
Countless already...
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Endure
Oh thanks, i have had enough.
I have enough of not retaliating at all seriously. I wanted to really do what i do at best today but i decided maybe you really can't see what i meant. I must say, do not step on my tail or i am going to zham at every single opportunity i see.
You won't like it.
Zzz, friday the one. PRIMARY SCHOOL GATHERING!... So should i go to the one? Or primary school gathering. I really misses those days where we would joke about...
Miss ang, i still remember about your advice. Haha, you were always so far-sighted, even at primary 6 you were able to see through my weakness.
I really did went back to the ''school'' that was shifted from race course road, just to catch a glimpse of you, listen to your advice once again. Oh well, you were always not there.
You know when jingwen kept telling me to go to the gathering i was really not interested. When she told me that you were asked to come also, my decision really changed.
I wouldn't even care about the food, all i wanted was to see the people... However i really doubt we will get back that old feeling.
Oh, i really need your advice... You must be there if not i might really make a wrong decison in giving up the one?
Oh life.......
Why can't i realise about the whole matter earlier? Why did things have to turn out to be this way.
I am not good enough.
Just not, for you.
I have enough of not retaliating at all seriously. I wanted to really do what i do at best today but i decided maybe you really can't see what i meant. I must say, do not step on my tail or i am going to zham at every single opportunity i see.
You won't like it.
Zzz, friday the one. PRIMARY SCHOOL GATHERING!... So should i go to the one? Or primary school gathering. I really misses those days where we would joke about...
Miss ang, i still remember about your advice. Haha, you were always so far-sighted, even at primary 6 you were able to see through my weakness.
I really did went back to the ''school'' that was shifted from race course road, just to catch a glimpse of you, listen to your advice once again. Oh well, you were always not there.
You know when jingwen kept telling me to go to the gathering i was really not interested. When she told me that you were asked to come also, my decision really changed.
I wouldn't even care about the food, all i wanted was to see the people... However i really doubt we will get back that old feeling.
Oh, i really need your advice... You must be there if not i might really make a wrong decison in giving up the one?
Oh life.......
Why can't i realise about the whole matter earlier? Why did things have to turn out to be this way.
I am not good enough.
Just not, for you.
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