Phobia

Damn you fore-hand serve. Why is it that i still have the freaking phobia there?

Played table tennis during pw break. I freaking still have got the phobia for forehand serve. My serve keep missing the target because i am inconfident. I know myself the best. I know what went wrong. I know why is it so.

All started since 8 months ago? I figured out that my timing was different. Due to the stupid rule where you cannot cover the ball with your hand. Now the ball drop slower or faster. Freaking hell i have been trying to adjust to the speed and trained on that for like months.

Looks like my table-tennis is over. This time round it is totally over. Matt told me we should just quit. However i think that i am still worth the try. Cause my back-hand serve is not over yet. It is still competitive. It is still capable of assisting me do the job of starting my points. What's the point? Where is my old service? Where is that old starter? Where is that old feeling? Why am i feeling like a complete noob here when i know practically all about the game.

Is it still worth the try to make a comeback? I look at all the achievement in the past and compare with now.

Shit.