Inner Thoughts

Cycling with kashing and leon today. Too bad junyuan had his poly lesson until so late.

Not much to say, as usual as anything we did saw a couple of people along the trip. Funny things happened too.

This post isn't supposed to be about the outing today. Yes like what the title says.

I meant so much have happened this year and my life have been super hectic. If someone were to seriously ask me if i am happy now. The honest answer would be NO.

NONONONONONOO. Get it? Seriously, i hate my life now. Cause it is so screwed up. Like totally, i can't even really feel anything for anything. Or maybe the change have caused me to go into a mental disorder.

Like what i used to discuss with andrew,if time were to revert back to secondary 2 we would avert from the fate we ended up in. This time i am telling myself if time were to revert back, i will never screw my own life up.

Then back to the topic of what am i really fighting for. Like what the heck am i doing all these. For myself yea i guess in the super short term like 50 years because a human life span is basically around like 60-100? That goal seems to be too lousy.

I hope what i desired to achieve will happen. It will not be a short term goal. A long term goal which does not only include me.

Not one person not two person or three person. As many as i can help in my short lifespan.