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I don't know but after jerrold said that i was a complete idoit doing that, i thought about it again.

It didn't have to be going in that direction because it's super painful. He said something but i can't really remember the phrase so... At first i thought that by doing so it will get better, who knew it got worst.

I felt as if i die a little on the inside. Not only due to the mental torment i had to endure but also because i wasn't being myself. Since when i started to draw myself to talk to certain people only. I hate it absolutely, it's like bullshitto. It's like changing my very own personality. It's like as if i have no more friends.

(:(:(: Seriously, smiling for nothing when i text you. Haha, thanks for telling me that as well. Yeah, by like 3 people i think. I knew it, i was right about it, it's going to stay there for really really long. I don't care if it's going to be like the old case.



So yesterday was pw results release. Karma catching up with me like how i explain in earlier post.

Yup, carnivore is black-listed in my eating outlet. Freaking paid 8 bucks for a can of drink imported from japan. Hello~~~??! That's alright since andrew and me doesn't really care about the price of good food. You pay 44 bucks and you can't freaking get bread and pineapple. Haha, yup carnivore serve a buffet of meat. Talking about that make me feel sick at this very moment itself. Like so much ''turkey''.

Yuck, long lengthy post which stinks.

Cheers! (:

When you told yourself that you couldn't do it. You have already lost.

When you told yourself that you could do it. You have already lost.

You know it.

I am coming back, it's time. In a slightly different manner. I am coming back stronger than before. Confidence hmmm. This reminded me about someone's final advice to me. Days where i could find a girl whom i can talk to that easily... Cherish is all i can say i guess.

Muahhahaha.

Zzzz, i need someone to knock me conscious.