Ouch!

My teeth hurts. Putting back braces after being lazy for months leads to this moment of torture.

Ouch again for what? School is starting again, this weekend is so short. I NEED A BREAK when i just had one...

Come on i can do it.

Oh yeah, A levels results are going to come out within these 2 weeks. I hope my sister score well, if not i am dead.

Zzz chinese making me depress again, i didn't give it my all haiz. Why why why did i use my o level attitude to do the paper again? Damn it damn it, my compo please help me, my oral please help me, cause i got a feeling i screwed up the paper itself. So much for 77/100 during promos.

Did i mention about pw?

Take it that i did.

I don't know but i love the end of the canteen now. (: If you get what i mean ^^

Lock

I need to see you.

I need you to understand that you are indeed important to me.

Then i see something else, and i thought about it... You aren't even talking about me.

I think i might stop this thing. Let it end.

End?

Keepeaura

It's a weekend! Well, i am intending to change myself yeah?

I want to do it, stop those procrastination.

Give me stength, will, determination. I know i can do it, i don't have to actually prove to anyone.

I just want to become perfect, strong(er).

(:

I need a goal, in that sense/ And i have one. Just one that i intend to keep it with me to the end.

Reason

Hey, do you need me to have a reason for everything?

I must not take things for granted. Thanks Mr chia for your concern, certainly also serve as a wake up call for me. I don't know but i am concern about the way you see me. ):

Not as much as someone else i guess... Why can't i change?

Hey

Don't?

I know how does that feeling feels, i am confused? Because i do not know which way should i be going in terms of that sort of relationship...

My running sucks now! Hey, since when was it ever good haha. Aww, my leg are indeed weak.

Well, primary school class meeting soon. Kindda a mix feeling because....?

I hope all goes well.

All.

Did i mention about cabbing to school the whole of this week? Totally cool i tell you, i am just not bothered about posting on the car accident my family had.

Monday-Aww, man i have to go school myself. My mum told me to take the mrt instead of the bus. In my mind i was like heckman, CAB TIME.(4 dollar)

Tuesday- NO MRT, I AM LAZY! Cab TIME(6 dollar)

Wednesday-I AM UBER LAZY! Cab time(ASKED andrew for cab number, i CALLED CAB) (8 dollar due to 3.50 extra fee)

Thursday- CAB TIME! (8 dollar plus or whatever)

FRIDAY- HOLY OH MY MOTHER SHITTO, I AM ONCE AGAIN LATE FOR PE! Mr TONY LIM is gonna own me hard down in the dabulabilo hell of the hell yatta. So well, i was late again and i paid 8 bucks for cab again.

Yeah, I spend like half my pocket money on cab this week. Well who cares since i was sick for like 3 weeks so i saved up auto like 2 weeks of pocket money i guess.

Mum kept asking me if i had enough for like this whole week and i said yeah yeah yeah. Looking down at my 50 bucks left in my wallet i wanted to say-MUM I NEED MONEY!

Yeah, i need money to donate to the charity. Those kids in africa are freaking not having enough food to eat leading to malnutrition. Starvation is even worst.

God-damn people who stuff themselves up with all those expensive food. Disgust me totally when they do not do charity work somemore.

Oh and please choose your donation path carefully, NO NKF. Golden tap, thanks dude for enjoying yourself with a golden tap. I wonder if you have a golden bathtub too.

Oh yeah so what is the moral of the story>?( Meant for people who are lazy to read)

EAT LESS, AND HELP THOSE PEOPLE IN NEED OF IT.

Well, i am in need (: Donate to me please. please please please!

Bow

Hey, i feel like crying.(BUT BUT BUT i will never ever do it in front of you) Dream long angeline!

Chen laoshi asked me the question again today. (Mix)Jianglong, Translate-CAN you GET A FOR YOUR CHINESE?

See, i am under huge pressure now. If the subject that i have so much faith in doesn't perform well... What else can i expect?

Well, even if i were to fail chinese. I am still proud to be a chinese. Chinese forever because i love speaking chinese. I love using chim chinese terms to express myself, not to mention the easy usage of words, SOMETHING I fail badly in GP.

Hey, how many times do i have to fail before i realise that i was sleeping all these while.

So how long do i have to continue on like this? Life is short rahhh.

Don't judge me so fast please? At least try to know me better.

I love you people. So much so that i am willing to give up my all for your wellness.

Take care!

Hi/Hai/haiz

Alright i am tired of saying how screwed up my life is. I am getting it back up.

First i have to feed up my small body. I lost 5 kg and currently still counting i guess.

Currently my weight is around 58-59kg. IT have indeed been ages since i touch on the 50+numbers. Yes, i wanted to put on weight and now i lost weight smart.

The sudden lost of weight will therefore explain why i look so much more frail and erm hunchback? Cause i do not have the inner strength to even lift myself up these few days.

Oh not to mention those bruises from car accidents. Those have to go as well. Yes, CAR ACCIDENT. How not screwed my life can be but oh whatever. Thanks taxi driver for speeding over the red light.

Oh, not to mention my screwy results? That i have to say would definitely be my own wrong-doings. However, can you blame me for catching the stupid flu that cause me to shit and puke at the same time? Go try studying with that flu thanks.

So much more bullcrap that can happen. Like seriously, some of those aren't even possible.

Alright stupid rant...

I want to become stronger, more perfect.

Don't be so good to me... I am indeed scare that i can't control myself.

Hope

You know when i was raging and totally like a blahhbeedabillobull crazy mad guy with fever cough sorethroat and slight fever, i totally wanted to just dig a hole when i heard you say that.

Please, seriously wth is wrong with this??? I came school when i had all that just to hear you tell us that? Oh great thanks/??? Thanks SO MUCH.

I close my eyes and stayed calm.

My mum came back home and prepared american ginseng.( In my heart all those bullshit from the top immediately vanish).

Life, we always expect so much from others but why not take a look at ourself?

For me it was never about losing out on my side. I just hope that everyone live on happily cause life is definitely short.

This post will be lasting out here for sometime. While i am at it, i would really have to say.

I am pretty sure that anyone reading this blogpost now have got some form of problems at hand. Close your eyes and think about it. Being more hmmmm, simple?

(Non-simple includes plotting against someone, scolding someone that sort of stuff....You get what i mean.)

Is indeed beautiful.

Beautiful.

(:

Qi tai

-cough cough cough- Damn you cough stop pestering me. Bam, go away please go go go away. See, you will only make me stronger and now i am going to start eating more vegetables so you won't get any more chance to attack me.

Hee, NAH. Vegetarian omg i might just die before the cough gets me. I like empire state slogan. ''I didn't climb up the foodchain to become a vegetarian''. Well but don't go there cause their food stinks.

I guess i am just going to eat more green and bright stuff, however i cannot give up my meat because i need it for energy. Hey, and my mum said that i caught the virus from someone... Hmm, WHO IS IT???

Well, i will be leaving the house soon to my uncle house. Expect lots of crapness there, wish me good luck thanks.

I seems tired of this, that's why i decided to change the situation. I hope it will become better.

Until next time i guess, take care all.

Drink more water when you are reading this now!

Torture

Grrr, this year haven't been exactly good for me. I have been seriously ill for two times already. Last year i didn't even fall sick for once.

I cover myself up in blanket and force myself to sweat. Now my fever have subside, but there is still the coughing and sorethroat.

Chinese new year have been cool, really cool. Imagine sleeping at your uncle's house. I didn't even do much except get hongbaos and sleep. In the end we had to leave early cause i wasn't getting any better.

Weird thing being like less than 2 hours ago i was totally weak, ever had the feeling whereby when you cough it feels like someone stabbing you in the neck. Horrible.

I am better now, thought i should get my life straight.

Alright then tomorrow is the day where blah blah blah, relatives gets to gossip and ask all sort of laabelabedo questions. Thanks for saying that i became thinner. Woot, i am not labelled as fat.

Well, then see ya!

02

Happy CHINESE NEW YEAR.

Ok ok ok, chinese new year so let's forget about the past and look forward. Give me like 1 year to delete stuff from my head ok.

Delete delete delete.....Error- Retry- Error.

Why is there a error? Why why why error. Cause i am that kind of person who take very long to forget about stuffs? Old memories. Stay with me. Stay with me.

Tonight i am going to stay up to shou ye. I scare i might just fall asleep because i slept only 4 hours or so for the past 2 days. Alright then looking at the time it is indeed 1209 now. I am coughing terribly, apparently not in the mood to do anything.

However if staying up for one night will prolong my parents life. I don't give a babedabeloo about staying awake.

Alright then, happy new year once again. I wish good luck to everyone, all xiao ren will auto bang their head against the wall.

Did i mentioned that i yell at the sea at angeline's house 2 days ago? How i hoped i was alone, wish to be alone, alone to yell what i want to say.

You never get who i am talking about, it is you...

01

Hehe, i feel slightly better i guess. Thanks for the jiajia cause now i have cough. Damn i forgot to drink some water before sleeping.

Chinese new year! Hmm, not really anything to expect but the same old relatives asking the same old questions. I need to start up the day by going out with my parents.

I decided that from this day onwards i will start counting the dates. Everyday will be recorded.

Passive plus active.


I will watch over you to see that you live on happily.

Jealous

Now then do i realise about it.

Black face stands for something. Leaving it there.

Bye i need to calm down cause i am an idoit.

Immature.

Grateful

Your aura give me strength.

Back to square one.

Eye bag

Thanks ar for saying I look tired these few days. School Grrr, I don't know how to explain but I shall follow everyone, it's complicated.

Ok, i deleted the whole second part cause i cannot stand the content.

Today was actually eventful. Yeah so how can it be eventful when i spend a whole day in school until 9? Haa, hmm hee. Err?? Ok i saw a couple of friendly faces, familiar faces that i felt comfortable with. Not to mention weird people also but whatever i don't care about them anymore.

Thanks to someone content of conversation with me, it looks like i have to be super cautious about what i type down here. Yeah, so in the end who i like have to be observed by people. Considering about closing this whole place down but that is just simply foolish cause i don't see a point in doing so because of them.

Ok SO YOU WANT TO KNOW? DO YOU REALLY WANT TO KNOW? Give me one good reason why should i tell you. Assume and assume and more assumption. Thanks arh, now i am going to just write about other stuff.

Oh and junling said that my body doesn't match my face... So a small boy(Small head) cannot have a big body? Ok la, and to think that i thought it wasn't that obvious.

So much more to talk about but so little time left. Leon asked me to do it first so that he would get some motivation for that matter. Oh yeah, i don't dare to do it why?

Cause i am not prepared.

So i shall wait for you to do first haha, so that's like eternal? Cause YOU ARE PASSIVE.

Hehe yadi, don't try to hide. Haha kashing you don't even need to bother also cause i will have yadi to spy on you.

Look at the time and i haven't bathe yet nice.

Ending off, take care be it if you are a passive reader, a friend, a schoolmate, a classmate, a mate, a blog jumper, a jumper. a jump.

Even if you are not, don't fret, i will still hope that your new day will be a better one.

: )

Did i forget to mention the fact that i didn't dare to do it because i am tired of letting the matter drag on to me. Rather than having it drag on me, why not take it slowly.

How should i explain this?

Andrew

Alright, give me face and not question about anything and click the link.

Will at least promise you something if you are a gamer.

Cheers!

Paradise

Once someone told me about this story. He guessed out my answer to the story but i replyed that he was wrong. At that point i knew that i was wrong.

-Shake head- I WAS SO WRONG. I thought i could at least force myself to accept it but i was so wrong.

I can't do it.

Turning my head to the right, i see that the weather seems to be great. However i have to get stuck inside all thanks to my smart junior who came up with the finisher PT With some jumping-jack thingy that is absolutely useless except to injure your ankle.

I was cursing him when i was running yesterday at the stadium haha. Ok la not really cursing just that when i ran my first round i realised that my ankle was giving me problem.

Geo field trip! Yadi said he should be going but i was thinking that i might give it a miss. However i would change my decision if someone is going. Though only one person in the whole class know who that someone is.

Alright then, may we meet in school.

: )

BamBam

Bam. Lalalalalala. Not sure why but i am grateful. Grateful of what have went on this week. Closing my eyes i am currently recalling what happened today, leaning near me causes my heart beat to go into a disorder mode.

: ) , After training i saw tennis having some friendly matches. Well,sorry zhaozhi i couldn't stay back cause i had something on. Though i am sure you would have won.

Now hmm, oh yeah not to mention about mat's new class being like 15-16 retainees. Unfair, just unfair i guess but there's nothing we can do about it...

Alright, i guess my life have been pretty boring these few days. I shall wait till something big happens.

Till then stay strong people!

Oh and did i mentioned about a haircut? Hope it goes well. Cause i was thinking of something light.

Trance

Ooo, maybe it was because I am getting older, I do not get that old feeling of tension.

I should grow up like now. Like what you guys said, a soap opera. Or rather Korean drama...

Getting back to reality now.

My last word?

Optimism.

Hard

Friends? I don't know if i should make the move, but i wonder if you get my signal?

Then i thought maybe just sitting beside you will be enough.

J1 table-tennis players came in.

Fun.

I am so tired to type anything except about you cause you are on my mind now.

Ponyo

Ok so just when i ran out of topics to talk about. I shall just post one thing that will assist me in the talking.

EEE, why was my head pointing down haha. Anyway just spot me out and have a laugh at me.

I have a ton of things to say, but i decided that it would be better if i were to leave it as it is. Just there, never to be touched.

You asked me that question but i find it hard to answer because i really do not know how to answer. I showed you that piece of paper to let you understand what might be going on, but what you do not know is that it was only a small portion of what i am currently experiencing. I do not wish for you to get the wrong idea about my personality because of the things i said. Most of the time those stuff are just rubbishdulliidoo. You can't help me because even i can't resolve such things myself. Innocent people should just stand by the side and not get tainted. HORRIBLE world, which i was so bad luck to be chosen.

All i asked for was to believe in me, not to mention about the lack of understanding because i find it very hard to say out what i really want to say. I know what am i doing. I do.

So then, i shall not comment about my life anymore. : ) Unless you are very close to me, if not then i am sorry that this post seems stupid. HOWEVER, you will still get to see my primary school childish picture haha.

SEE YA!