Miss

It hurts because the whole thing is an one sided affair...

I feel like giving up.

WHO IS GOD?

Observe the human behaviour and you will understand what i am talking about.

Just had econs block test retest just now. MCQ was funny ttm, essay was like omg-hard. Haha, more like i didn't do much revision at all cause i don't have much time.

So it is 1 now and i am supposed to be at chayadi's house celebrating his brother birthday but apparently they are not calling me up yet so i am like slacking around like an idoit at home. Thinking of presents and you know chayadi is so freaking thick-skin that he asked me to buy a ps3 for his brother.

Lol, yadi go buy yourself la, so rich still ask me to buy. Idoit.

Alright then i am sorry for posts coming in slower and slower now.

I am getting old.

Everytime i come back here, i was hoping that you just left. A single look from you is enough to melt my heart.

Cherish

You give me one gold bar i return you with 10.

Went running but obviously i wouldn't choose such A BAD TIMING TO RUN. Running under the hot sun at 2pm was certainly not my choice.

Thanks vanessa and carissa for making such a wonderful decision to make me tan. Apparently it went off so-so and end off so-so. I think the last time i tried running under the hot sun was last year after the mid-years exam. Depression eats in and i went bonked and started doing stupid things to make myself as dark as david.

Anyway, let's go back to the title. Thanks for the drink, wonder if you ever notice that i only drink H20 original. Maybe it was coincidence that we both like the same drink.

Returns. : )

Mixture

You are capable of making me smile.

Someone is leaving us, for nyp. I guess we should respect his decision as he must must already ponder about it for a frigging long time.

I might even convert my blogpost into chinese text after sharing his inspiration. However first i must figure out how does the typing thing work...

Now he is drilling out of me who i like, while i asked him that question first.

That final answers that i have never told anyone about.

I have the answers already.

Crystal clear at least for this very moment. I can assure that i am not joking around.

To cover it all up

Never meant to be.

Huaalaa, to look on the bright side, i..i...i grew up a lot?

By 1 cm to 174 cm.

Haha mentality i meant laaaa.

Chen wei

For my coach chen wei, i let you down after all those hope and trust you place in me.

I was never meant to be the SP.

After talking to kit chung during the training session, i gave it one final thought. You said it was because i am the SP in sec2, but you also mentioned that my peak ends at secondary two.

So the final conclusion was that i am currently playing with standards lower than secondary two, the standard that got our team to nationals top 8. After all that talk a bullshit about how my records during my peak was only a single lost during the whole competion to anglican high(cause i was rubbishing around with gethro), with much winnings against strong teams like RI, SJI, and Xinmin.

I am back to nothing.

So once again sorry coach i let you down since i promise you that i am giving it all up for studies.

And now my studies ARE LIKE SHIT.

How i hope all these wasn't real, how i hope i wasn't so naive.

Anyway, i hope that you will continue leading any team to champions like what you did with Maris stella High, 8 years National First.

Ironic thing is even without going back to school to visit the team, i saw the banner on St'Gabs secondary. North Zone champions. Now i feel like killing those people who took it away from us.

So much bullshitto is useless. I must really come back to reality.

With talent there must be chances for you to excel. Those chances do not come easy.

Cherish it.

Multi-task

Now, what has this place got in store for you?

What 101 reasons do i have for anyone to visit this place? I gave this question some thoughts and i figured out that i should actually change my ''writing'' style once again.

Well, not that many of you actually read chinese blog, but i really have to comment on li siming's blog. The only blog that can enable me to go back there again because of the style, the humour and the flirty jokes he type out all in chinese.

Wonder if that is possible in english tho...

I supposed it would be really better to try out new stuff rather than rotting and lagging and slacking and dabadodooing. The main reasons why i don't even bother blog jumping because there are so many bo liao blogpost.

However it all comes down to 1 question...>>>>>!?

Who the hell cares?

Not me

Nah

I do.

Fool

You fool. Sounds like paper in soul caliber?

Anyway i realised i was one when i attempted something today. Damn it i figured out that i was wasting my time all these while.

Come to recall about it i think wasting the time looking at girls.

HOW ABOUT NO?

Haha, ok to some extent.

I need a break when the break just ended.

Nice.

-.-

Bad bad bad. This week is hell.

I have so much to say, so little strength left.

Sorry but i had no one else to turn to, ok not really no one to turn...

Oh and david stop visiting this place.

Bless anyone else like him. : )

Currently trying my best to turn off my sensor, which some of you might know about it going crazy and capable of being like a sixth sense organ. Crazy thing that enable me to sense the vibe i guess.

Negative or positive are the only ways i can explain how does this thing work.

So here i am trying hard to turn it off and achieve what i hope to achieve, there are people out there apparently trying to hit me down hard... As if i can't sense you at all, you ARE JUST NEXT TO ME.

Come on i need to work out more. 20 pull-ups is not a dream.

Wonder if it is?

Scare is the word i can say, will you hold my hand and tell me all is right?

Haito. :(

Age extreme

Why does people who are born in the month of january acting so immature? Tsk you people are setting bad examples for people who are born in december like me.

Secretly feeling proud that i am one year younger. :)

Stupid stomach pain, i am thinking of going vegetarian already. Made me vomit somemore...

History test was freaking hard. I am screwed.

Lalala.

Joy

Hello, are you studying?

I dare not set for anything. However i dare to promise one thing.

I will not give up.

Time for me to run. Come give me all that you got.

Optimistic come on come on. Come on...

I will prove it to you.

However not for you, but for myself.

Judge me.

Look at me

Cause i am dissappointed. Not in anyone, but myself.

WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY.

I am going crazy soon. Not because of me, but you?

After trying so many methods to figure out what those looks are about i got to nothing.

Ok, come someone whack me slap me splash cold water at me. Anything you want but please do not freaking ignore me. Or just sit there doing no shit because i do not what shit i am supposed to do too?

Waste time.

Time for happy stuff. School have been great, i have been bad.

I think i ignore a couple of people, i think i wuliao too much, i think i made a couple of enemies, i think i made a couple of friends.

School is fun. ''fun'' i meant.


Do not judge the situation just because you assume that it is so. At least ask me for explaination, if you can't, try to understand.

Cause i can't freaking control who i can talk to. Like what everyone said, being friendly is important.

I guess so, but i can explain.

Did i mention that my 2.4 is unofficially under 10 minutes? Muahaha, looks like at least that paid off. Trying to hit 20 rounds. Hard but i will never give up.

The pain might last for a moment but if i do give up now i will regret forever.

Hair

I'm sorry to you. However i did not do that on purpose. If you by chance come upon here, please do not... do not...

Block test=gone.

Love

See when i cannot think of a topic title. I guess i have to use this to just let it go.

Wasted the ultimate Blogpost title. Whatever not like when you are in love you will tell the whole world about it.

Nah, you won't tell the whole world but to the universe.

Hectic day as usual. I was bullshitting around at the station. Apparently any idoit with the capability in table tennis will definitely have the IQ to not come for open house table tennis.

Yes when i say that, you can say all those that came for the trial were bullshit. Pros do not waste their time on this shit. They are basically even too lazy to challenge the people at the station. I know some of them are hiding there. If you do appear i tell you to not come here.

If you do want to come here, please DSA or you fate will be like what i mention.

Bullshit.

Back to the topic on love. I wonder if i will ever get to really understand it.

Leon have to prove to me examples of people being superficial. Now i think there is no difference between me and them. No difference at all.

No... ...

Great

Great way to start my year. Getting caught and asked to go for a hair cut.

Not even fair that i got picked just because my side-burns are long. Freaking hell so many people with hairs longer than mine.

Sob.

Silence

Before the storm approach.

My shoulder feels like it is going to break off anytime now. Hello 2010. Haha, it seems like i have not set any new year resolution.

Not that i didn't, just that i didn't post it up.

Ok let's see the resolution now.

Start

No vulgarities.

End.

Tadaa. My resolution rocks eh? :), not as if i use them a lot anyway. Haha you cannot count in those that came up due to stress...

I will be seeing you guys in school then.

Oh yea, not to mention i should cut down being emo.

Reminds me again of being optimistic. Wonder if i spelled that correctly>...

The post was supposed to end now, however i just realised i miss something out. Someone told me that online activities are just an illusion. Or rather everything that have to do with electronics stuff are illusion. Wonder why some people do not even have a facebook account? Wonder why some people seems to be so perfect?

Look at people whom you really feel are perfect in any sense, check on that person. Stalk that person, ask that person or whatever method you can think of.

I dare bet with you that, he/she doesn't even goes online.

I will bite you if you touch me

Ok, i just deleted the original blogpost on this.

I have 3 draft which i did not posted up.

I am cautious about what i write up here now.

DO I LOOK LIKE I WOULD EVER GIVE A DAMN ABOUT WHAT YOU THINK?

(Sorry, the answer to that question is sadly a yes)

(But please give me some face and do not comment about it)

School is reopening in less than a week. I wanted to post so many things but in the end i realised.

All of that doesn't really matter. Superficial or not, beautiful or not, handsome or not, caring or not, smart or not. God-damn it list is so freaking long. Basically everything you can think of.

It doesn't matter because it is a new year. If at this very moment you are thinking of oooo, how can i get that person to like me? How will our relationship go about next year? How CAN I FREAKING GET OFF THAT LADDER AND JUMP TO THE OTHER ONE? (Haha, meant to direct at yadi)

Just let it go.

Be yourself.

Cheers, i will always be there if you need me.

^^

A whole new world

A whole new year i meant. Apparently seems like it is indeed a whole new world.

People whom i wanted them to stay didn't, those who i wanted them to leave didn't.

Just that smile will make my day.



I really can't express how much i love my mum. Or actually if anyone close to me leave me, i will not be able to handle it.

Now you understand why i tend to avoid making wrong decision in that sense. You do not bear or think about the consequences of the decision you are going to make. I have to shoulder it all by myself. Who will share the torture?

You? Even if you can, i can't.

I am always

ONE DAY LATE.

Damn it, i am lazy...

Ok, first up happy new year to all.

Second, happy birthday to me which was like on 31th december.

Third, thanks to all who gratz me.

Fourth, i am not junyuan's gay partner. (Don't even think about the couple lab thingy lol)

Fifth, i just have that everyone will have a good year ahead and get whatever they want, most importantly all should stay strong.


A smile is all i ask for, that's all.

Cheers XD.