Everytime

Da shit.

1 whole week for that meaningless episode of naruto. WHAT DA F.


Funny thing is that the 2 songs with this title are nice.

Kiss me

I don't know if it's too much for me to enjoy this feeling of Ord.

Finally my hair is drawing attention in a positive way.

Which only means 1 thing.

Cut.

Fml.

The similarities are so great that i wonder if fate is just trying to screw me upside down. DNA?

상상(Imagine)

As if i really do have depression.

. . . - - - . . .


Can someone please tell me there are more things to do rather than just shopping sight-seeing talk cock meet up with friends and family members in Singapore.

Life is so mundane.

There are so many things i wanted to tell others, but then just at the very moment i wanted to say the first word, i stopped.

Why bother?

If only life was about waking up and looking out to the sea. The never ending splashing sound and breeze.

What do i want exactly?


I ain't really sure myself.

After spending 1 hour roaming about at the library today due to waiting for someone to wake up, i can say that it was well spend.

Because i saw this sentence somewhere.


“An error doesn’t become a mistake until you refuse to correct it.”

I don't know why

The song i am listening to.

Life is so boring these days. Not happening at all. Like seriously. Seriously. ):

Then when it's happening i complain.

Start of block leave. Hope that it does not go wasted.

The day that is nothing special?

Except when i was a kid.

Whereby santa really existed.

It's 2am in the morning and my biological clock is screwed due to clubbing last night.

Funny having small little conversation inside there discussing about the people just 10cm away from you.

I don't know i think i won't be back there anymore, unless i am super depressed or someshit, but there's of course something to do in there. After watching clement dancing.


The NEW YEAR RESOLUTION.

So-called bullshit ideas that we wish to accomplish within the timespan of 365&1/4 days.

I seriously need to hit those aims/goals/hopeless impossible dream for next year.

Seems a bit early though...

But i can't sleep.

So.




Some random ones to jot down first.

Ippt gold. (SBJ- which my kneels are gone so this is almost impossible)
Driving license.
1X taeyang's hair.
1X 180cm
1X 70kg

Wait what the shit all superficial stuff...

Whiskey Mike Delta 2pdf

(:

At least i have them.

Dog

How bad can it be inside a unit.

When others are going to get 8-5 vocation, i am about to plunge back into aslc again.

Tired of this shit and when i heard there are too little spots and too many sec comm, my eyes opened up wide.

Like seriously a spark of light.

KENG

MY

WAY.





I realise this dumb system is flawed to the max.

I must be crazy

Trying to meet up with so many people.

And still try to play a online game.

A meaningful weekend.

(:

...

I HATE CAT TERM.

Inside some form of dilemma, one end i want to know more people, on the other i really can't be bothered cause it is only for 1 more week.

Really miss people like chin chong.

Shouting each other's name and pointing middle finger at each other.

Doing saikang together, knowing that we have our group to support all our appointments when we needed it.

You guys are dogs.

3 months of hell, i really don't mind another 8 days of outfield if i get to mess around with you peeps again.

Starting from 0.



But of course not 0.


I suppose i really don't care anymore, sloppy and whatsoever, i have not even put on a single badge on my smart 4.

I look like a stupid recuit when other formation peeps look at my smart 4 they really do look at such things. I have people asking me where's my csb. I think i won't put on any badge because there's really no point.

I really need a new motivation.

It's fading away. I can't even remember it anymore.

A good thing i think.

Moving on hehe. Finally?

Lihoubo

And guess what, i am once again too lazy to type everything out.

However i still feel the need to record down something.



So 3 weeks in taiwan, i love the weather there. I hate the knolls/hills.

I had tears in my eyes twice due to hyperventilation //(i got so used to that feeling already since i always train to ration my water i cannot avoid this issue, you know mentally that your body is asking you to stop and then tears start coming out, however on appearence it seems as though you are half-gone but inside you know that it's all normal if you press on (: )// as i was carrying the 850 with 200 percent batteries up liverpool and alex 2.

My appointments in exercise warrior was

RUNNER
SEC COMM
ENEMY ALL THE WAY.

So basically i had 3 full days of hell and 5 days of happiness.


When i say hell, you will not want to know how bad it was.


Best scene from warrior was me sijie and brandon on top of megan.

We talk about every single crap and endure one night of freezing cold out in the forest.

All i can say is that i am really glad that i have met great friends.

I hate this feeling, cause everything is coming to an end now.

):

<<<''

Turn that anti-clockwise.

Warrior+longstride over.

Naicha+jipaa over.

Singapore have got 0 hills or knoll.

I grew a little.

Fucking tired.

I love taiwan though.

(:

(:

One last day.



I have already decided to go there and give it my best.



To stand by what i believe in.



Slack





Hehe.

The world

Is full of things.

Many oocs have been telling me that my name is on the list of ocs-crossover.

The thing is my superior does not understand me at all.

I honestly don't give a shit about attaining any form of prestige. OCS SCS MAN.

What the fuck is wrong with the hierachy system.

The rank does not matters at all seriously. Now the thing is i might end up in guards list because i am definitely not ranked bottem few.

Fml...


To think that i was thinking of i performed well i will not get assessed by them again. Aka more slacking about hehe.

I was so wrong, the better you do the more shit you get.

So guess what>? I am LSC again for first mission in warrior.

The only difference was that i accepted this appointment with a very lazy and bored tone.



Taiwan in about 2.5 more days.

Pray that i do not get any shit please.




Last night was fucking bullshit, i went to check up on that topic and i realised... maybe there's nothing much i can do.

Life goes on.

Harsh.

The urge

Hey no let me tell you what,

I will live my life my own way.





Maybe i should really try smoking, get ear piercing and drink more.



Blaa, i want to stop using vulgarities. Doesn't portrait anything at all.

):

Our bunk is crashing.

TTY and me received 1 times 14 days sol.

Zailan heat exhaustion twice.

Gajen OOC because of a stupid incident.

Joochuen foot rot.




I felt bad for gajen, just hope for the best now, 2 years of ns over soon.


All that is what i could tell him.


Try working hard for something 6 months straight, been through all the shit and get ooc because of something that cost 2.5 dollar...


This world is fucked up.

No joke

Seriously no joke.

One night of nightmare.

32km is wtf.





When i reached 30km mark i had tears in my eyes.

At 32km i was laughing like a crazy dog.

COMBAT SKILLED BADGE!


Aslc is really over~~

Woohooooooooo

Lsm role pass down already (:

32km tomorrow.

Pray everything goes well.

Fly

Far Away.

I want my life to settle down, but 32km road march and flying over to taiwan...

Plus i have not officially hand over my Lsm role.

How?









Deep down inside i am scare to even book in.

Tsk humji.

Fighting!

I don't know I don't know (:

I mean come'on.

LSC
LPS
LSM.

Hehe, all main appointment holder's job have been cleared by me~!

I got fucked just once when i was leader sergeant major.

Couple of times during leader platoon sergeant.

Animal Platoon cannot listen to any instructions at all, luckily i have lots of people helping me out (:

Just paiseh i guess.


I guess that i changed that much, you don't really matter at all now.

How many months?

Clubbing,drinking&smoking

Ok first up i seriously think that the smoking issues need to be resolved.

I am trying my very best here trying to stop people from doing it and there they are trying it because they are high.

Social smoking social smoking, 6-7 STICKS IS NOT ANYMORE.

Drinking is fine.

Clubbing is uhhh, i don't know but it was one big chaos. The atmosphere was good, before i went clubbing i asked my friends so what do you do inside there?

Drink talk grind what you know i am talking about.

All i can say is that everyone look the same inside, i encountered the part 3 a couple of times though i did not do anything ended up with DongDong trying to push me over.

I don't know, i just felt that some people went overboard.


Don't WANNA BOOK IN!

!

Lots of things happening in ASLC.

Totally no social life anymore ):

As a leader platoon sergeant, i failed totally haha.

I have like 4 items stunned during one single raid of bunks by Delta's 2IC.

MISSED MARKSMAN BY 1SHOT. 38 38 38... ...

MY 200 DOLLARS GRRRR.

and the badge

and the pride.

CCC

People whom i often ignore at the start are always the best at the end.


So glad that i have the accompany of such people.

Gives hope (:



I really want to go out, out to the real world.

Everyday is just like another passing motion.

Hate doing that.

Grand Slam

5 days 4 night in jungle.

3 platoon mission and countless of section attack.

Plus the 45 degree HQ site.

I think i climbed that like 10 times at least.

All finally over.

Hardest of aslc over (:

Glad i did not fall out.



Now its time to just rest.


Shack but happy (:

Tsk

Charged already (:

Tan tee yong and me together.


Grand Slam is coming.


Today had been a great day because i realised that it was actually quite easy to communicate with my superior.

Skip chain of command to OC regarding charging issues lol.

Nice guy is all i can say.


I am not going to ooc.

Few more weeks only.

):

SOL 14 days.

That is 21 days away from home.

... ... ...

How?

Grand Slam coming and i am going to report every 2 hours to a chocolate bar who will confirm be late.


Suck thumb liao la.

Had 1 nights out just now, favian and yuandong went drinking so i took 4 mouthful in total.

Need help from all of them to go through this period, my fking buddy is useless like crap, worst buddy ever.


Fking cannot stand him at all.

11 weeks more

This whole week was crazy.

Starting from monday i have been looking forward to bookout, whenever i talk to people they are like in self-denial mode or something.

Jon thought that the next day after monday was wednesday already lol.

Pace was fine, completed 8km in 7km timing. IOC was fine everything else was uhhh, long wait.

OOC thoughts kept flying about in my mind, everyday more people OOCing. Soon i think we will reach 15 OOCS.

Stay Strong and Push forward to get that rank.


Now let me enjoy my well-deserve rest please.


Now ain't the time yet.

Just not yet.


Endure.

Book In

Uncertain feelings, however once i stepped inside the bunk everything turns out fine as i have them turning the atmosphere from gloomy to cheerful.

Heard from others that aslc will go by fast, shag and fun.

Last few days i almost went clubing, until the last moment i finally pang them, had to switch off phone to spot that massive spam. Kindda regretted not going as my ex-buddy got into some trouble there.

Seems like 3 gangsters wanna be went to punch him because he knock into them, however they had like 10 man there shielding him. So its like lol.

Hate people who smokes.

Like seriously.

This week will be fun.

Mind-fk myself to think that it is indeed fun.






Btw, lucky i didn't drank much alchohol on saturday, 1 sip and i turned into Mr Crab.

Had to clean up after andrea somemore, freaking messy.

Hope Yadi's mum didn't take it to heart though.

Good Day (:

Time to sleep.

):

I look around and the only reason OOC doesn't come in mind is because i wanna be back into mike coy to see all my buddies.
This sort of burden cannot anyhow share ma.

Share share share now all of us are in INFANTRY LE LA.

Seriously, emoing on my bed now...

At least i still have this ''good'' laptop with me.

Thanks NS for letting chaokeng kias go easy vocation, i have nothing to say.

Stop bitching lawrence.


I decided to just use your advice, you know you are seriously just no end? It's like seriously no end maybe cause i just have not met someone better.

Tho they still tell me that i am forever pessimistic.

28km

FBO again.

Don't get me wrong, i love road marches, however just the end product not the process.


Hope it goes on smoothly, i know i will have my buddies to talk to but just like 24km i predict that the pain will get the better of me and end up with me whining like a bitch.

To take precaution i have told favian to scold me straight if i start asking question like are we reaching yet, how long more?

The weather looks good, but my health does not ):


Fly.

Technology

Shag?, seriously that little bit of work is nothing.

Y-generation...

Last night i felt like smashing my phone. I hate it when people ask the 5W1H question when it's just an outing. Especially when i am using some nokia 2100 that always lag for no reason. Can't even let me enjoy playing fifa with someone who is right next to me in real life because i have to reply to people who are like miles away.

Tsk.

This bookout was well spend, went out 3/4 of the days. However i didn't get to watch Captain America ):

Oh well so be it.

(:

Week 4?

Not even sure myself.

Ok, next week confirm no RT for me as i cleared both ioc and ippt.

Low rope was harder than what i expected in sbo with rifle. Luckily my back muscles did not fail me (:

I think i might stay in for RT next week though since jonathan is staying back due to not meeting the standard of 8 pull-ups. Not to mention my imba section and bunk buddy failing their ioc due to unforseen mistakes.

This week had been a pretty 'xiong' week? I am not too sure but all i know is that we have completed about 30km distance just on running itself. Which of course includes 11km of road march for no reason.

Body maintenance time as usual was great, look around and see everyone fbing on that crappy laptop, i log in next thing i know kaixiang go mess with my fb.

Then we chiong POKEMON LOL.

Field-camp soon, got to train up faster to get ready for hell ):

With pride we lead?


we will see.


Sometimes i feel like giving up, like seriously there's no reason for me to push on, i sat down and thought about it and i cannot find any reason anymore.

Wandering about.

...

Less than 3 hours to book in.

I DON'T WANT TO BOOK IN ):

Wk 2

So yeah, ippt first ioc and sports day all over.

With favian's teachings i managed to hit 230 again. I don't know but i felt that it was not a solid jump.

With NO RT in mind, i started the first try with 210 lol.

Like me jumping on the spot then looking back and gasping then looking at staff ong and he look at me like errr, so i just move back with 1 more try to go.

Obviously i was even more nervous during the second try but i remembered my buddy's advice :P


IOC was simply in long four. I mean come on the wall and rope can't stop me haha.


Hope that next week will be a better week, i really have to keep up my written diary... so many blank pages. Ughh.


Stay happy :D

TBASM

Booking in again tomorrow night ):

I aim to be a stronger man this week. IOC/IPPT/Games day. Plus all the lectures ):

Heaven please give me the strength to endure all these and let me ace my standing broad jump so that i will have motivation to run 9 mins for 2.4 so i get my small little badge for show and also that 200 bucks which will be sweet for nothing.

Alright time to stop bitching.

SCS is so much more lepak as compared to whiskey already, i better suck it all in and stealth pass all these once again.

Bahh, DON'T WANT TO SLEEP!

SCS

First week finally over and we are officially known as SCT NOW.

Hehe no longer some rec/pvt at the end of the stupid chain.

I got RT this week because i didn't achieve a minimum silver for ippt.

20/25 pts and i am a pass lol.

Stupid SBJ which i dropped by 10 cm since the last ippt. I don't know i suspect it is some sort of mental issues though.

Feeble when i step on the mat ):

Why so? Cause MX TENG IS FREAKING NOT BESIDE ME.


(and my whole detail jump like some frogs)


Oh well everything is over now.


I am going out later at night then tomorrow get ready to book in ): ): ):



You know sometimes i feel unmotivated and when i do so i always want to do something. However it seems like i should stop trying to do that because it's bad.

Bad bad bad.

TidiTidi

Hi, it's the last day of my block leave.

Once someone told me something which i could never forget. Struck hard and it's like forever inside my brain now.

You were the one.

Years, wonder if you changed much.

Bye.

Either the best or the worst.

Will see.




WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO Sleep.

Vocation

1. You are posted to SCS & WSAS
2. Your vocation is INF LDR
3. Your are to report to: Pasir Laba Camp, Blk 276, #02-15
Reporting Date/Time: 11/07/2011 at 0800 - 0830 hrs
Person to report to: Chief Clerk
Contact Number: 64105597/5594/5533
You are required to report in smart no.4 uniform (PES E recruits to be in No 3 uniform), except for those assigned to Police Force.
4. Special Instruction:
Report to Pasir Laba Guardroom in Smart No 4 Uniform. No Camera Handphone, thumb-drives and MP3/MP4 are allowed. You are required to bring along your duffle bag/field pack complete with the SAF issued items given during BMT. You are expected to stay in.


FML. INFANTRY LEADER.
FML
FML
FML
FML
FML
FML
FML.

Marc and me are going to express strong interest in mp/signal after bslc.

I am going to say the same stuff to my pc. I love catching people, my interest is catching. fnmiaonsegfiengoiewngoewgwegnwngvejimwg.

Everything aside, checklist for the day.

After slacking for 2 days, i am moving out from my hole.

Hope to get a nice pair of iem, casing for my classic which i cannot bring in camp for dunno what kind of rule that is uhh. Stayover at andrew's house and most likely going out tomorrow as well.


A final rest day on Sunday (:


Make me smile will ya (: (: (:

Like not on net.

Still FML.

OMG

When i said no, i suppose i should really stop thinking about it.

Handphone has been turned off for like 1.5 days already, i fear to charge it back on ):



Vocation posting tomorrow noon. Hope i get into somewhere good!

I don't know what to say but what the heck is wrong with you.

Fly

Go As High As You Can.

Don't turn back.










:(

Dogs

4 Days of book out, FINALLY MOTHER FK_____.

My whole body is aching to the max, but i am more worried about those who got confined to saturday,(*cough god of sniper and the person who got full As and took H3 and like to call others fk face lol).

Well i did my part as a buddy to try to call them but apparently phones off, so most likely sleeping in preparation of revile tomorrow.

Enough time on the net, cannot waste my book out time (:

Whiskey

So, i am back to this place again.

What shall i start off with...

I love section 3.

I am actually enjoying army life because of section 3.

I found my best buddy in bmt on first day as well.

Book out time is ___king short for whiskey, it feels like being in OCS.

I have a whole lot of things to type out, but every single detail is so clear that i don't mind leaving this to block leave.

So yeah, I AM NOT DEAD!

Good health everybody (:

BTW my ippt is like damn jialat. From FAIL to SILVER. 16 minutes 2.4 to 10.

Yup that's what running with fever does to you.

Happiness

I saw the token today.

Insomnia insomnia insomnia, to be honest yesterday i fliped and turned about in bed until 5am. After this i am going to try and sleep early because it bullcrap to be awake for 5 hours doing nothing.

Everyone is waiting to get out of army and here i am, hands wide open and begging NS to come to me earlier. I cannot wait to get started on BMT and the much dreaded field camp. I have decided to try for Air Force, due to their enthu propaganda-Kept sending mails to me for checkups and shit. Plus i heard that their pay is as good as 1k^ even if you do not sign on.

Pilot hrmmm.

Hrmm.

Hrmmmmmmmm.

1k^ > 400 dollar.


Busy weekend, i have not told yadi i might not be turning up for leon's birthday cause i have class outing. I was thinking maybe i should just stay at home and emo more so i do not have to explain to either side my absence. Don't worry of course i will chap in to the B present.

Time to sleep.

Bye, take care!

STWWH?

Well at least i got to know the full story behind it.

I always believe in a second chance.

Don't worry you will do fine in future (:

Testimonial issues... Oh come on, what has this got to do with that?

Enough said, dissappointed in _ _ _ _.

Hrmm time to think if i should go old folk's home tomorrow then.

I should actually type out a proper diary about my life, not these sentences which made no sense.

Ok, maybe if my life gets interesting i will try.

Try yeah.

Yeah...

No?

This blogpost title must be as long as freaking possible cause it just have to be so.

Tell you what, totally no mood.

I realised i screwed up the character build for DA.

I have 2 freaking tanks.

FML.

The chilling aura

Which i love so much.

Especially when i can zoom zoom. Ok la not exactly since even with my max speed i cannot catch JY moving backwards. Super taunting ok, but i want to train harder so that i at least master backwards so as to carry out the master plan in future LOL.

Someone fell, fell once, twice, thrice, then i started to pay more attention.

It's too striking.

Well take care.

Tsk, but i fell once today as well. Intentional.

Hehe.

Yet another day

Wake

Daze

Play

Slack

Call

Daze

Call

Bath

Rush

Arcade

Lan

Movie

Aston!

End off with a big smile and wave at the end.

Shucks, btt tomorrow so wish me luck (:

The night life

Have you ever asked yourself if it is too early?

No.

Do you think that it was the right thing to do?

No.

So why are you doing it?

To follow the path:
look to the master,
follow the master,
walk with the master,
see through the master,
become the master.

Tada

Army life is coming, crap.

(:

Second time at cycling the whole park connector, found yet another place to sit at. If you were to go there one day remember to sit down at sunset bay or something. Can't really remember the name but you should see that spot on the map.

30 minutes was like enough. Really, but how i hope i could be there 24 hours.

It's insane.

Been forever.

Results are coming out. I don't know but the marist are not talking about it at all really.

Currently still at chayadi's house staying overnight playing majong. Crazy guy rapping on the songs and crazy people talking crap in the house (:

I don't know but i felt that something is definitely missing in my life.

No motivation at all.

Tsk someone arh, ask twice twice busy, been forever since someone told me that.

Or have it been forever since i even ask anyone out?

Comfort zone too complacent about such things i suppose.

Take care, so much to say but at the end i guess i only can face mr Sea and tell him everything.

Smiles

Can i man up?

I just want to move on.

Stop giving me pocket money, let me starve so i will go out.

Buttroll.

So that's how it feels?

Losing 150 points straight from 1800.

Try that.

My partner gave me an good advice, don't look at rating just care about how to improve.

Sick

You know those moments where you feel like killing yourself because you feel so terrible.

What's there to do?

Veni Vidi Vici

You hide, you cover, you close your eyes. However when you open up you will realise that everything is back to where you have been the last 18 minutes.

18 minutes hrmm, it feels like 18 years.

Learning how to observe body language is of utmost importance. Sometimes i really think that i overdo it anyway.

Just for this once, please do not let me meet another occasion that i have to act dumb again because i am sick of acting dumb due to other's low EQ.

New year resolution= NO EATING AT FAST FOOD.

Class chalet was fun except for the food. Ps angeline is going to kill me. Then again, i wouldn't go against myself and say that the chicken fillet was good.

0931 i will always reserve a space for you people in my heart.

<3